October Blog Series - October 17
Tuesday, October 17, 2017
I took a pretty giant step the other day in my pursuit of baby-stepping my way to a healthier and more fulfilling existence. On a virtual whim, though the thought has occurred to me over the last months but I didn't think I was ready to act on it, I re-joined Weight Watchers. So far, with a very limited sample size, it seems like it was a good idea.
Funny how the act of joining put me in an entirely different frame of mind. It's kind of interesting that you can join online, which I did, and not yet have gone to a meeting. So I'm trying to figure out what meeting day works for me, but in the meantime I am eating well and tracking, and doing all those things that one does when one knows she has to face a scale and someone besides her is going to see what it says.
I am not one who is usually driven by someone other than my own set of expectations or approval. In fact, I am one of those people who is more likely to rebel against the judgment of others towards me, I develop sort of an "f-u" kind of attitude when I perceive that others are judging me. So it is interesting that the thought of facing the scale in that setting has impacted me in this way. I mean, I want to eat well and get to a healthier weight for all the right reasons, don't get me wrong, but I do find myself to care more than usual about those external pressures. Perhaps because I am getting older and for all my desire to get myself to a healthier place, it does kind of feel like time is slipping through my fingers. Now, if that kind of feeling, more towards the "it's getting late" desperation, is what it takes to make it happen, then listen, I'll take it. I am not foolish enough to look at whatever gift horse delivers to me to the best mental attitude to get this done and not heed it.
So now, in keeping with my theme this month of "physical, personal, professional," here goes:
With the joining of WW, I have put the major piece in place in the nutrition area. I would go even further and say that have experienced some kind of attitudinal adjustment that is even more encouraging. As far as the exercise part, though I can't say I have been religious in getting my workouts in, I have found what I want to do and I have done it, and my goal is to now make myself more dedicated to it. I still believe the best time to get it done is first thing in the morning, but when you have to be out of the house by 6:45 am, it's very hard to wake up early enough to get the workout in. This is a work in progress.
Went out to breakfast with my husband and son on Saturday morning. It was wonderful, because none of us were in a rush to get anywhere, and we could really just sit and talk and enjoy each other. I aim to do more of that, whether in a restaurant or at home.
So this, too, is a work in progress. I have been working hard over the past couple of months to get my work-house in order. Some of that was forced upon me when one of my staff up and left unexpectedly, but I am finding that is not a bad thing. But now I seem to be going beyond just my work-house, it seems like I might be feeling a bit restless. I might have one act left, or perhaps not, I am trying to bide my time and patiently "let it come to me." We shall see.