Depression and Comic Con Motivation
Monday, August 07, 2017
I'm having a rough time with depression lately. Today was very bad, especially this evening. My back pain and slight nausea certainly aren't helping. I was supposed to do dishes today and I really need to get them done soon before they pile up again, but my back hurts every time I try forcing myself to do them. There is such a little amount because my mom already helped me with a lot of them, but I can't seem to do it. I couldn't even manage them yesterday when I was being super human despite still feeling depressed. I managed SIX loads of laundry yesterday, but today it took me hours just to get out of bed.
I feel awful, but I need to muster a happy face for tomorrow. It's Jeremy's 16th birthday. We are trying to make it special for him even though he will not be getting a driver's license this year. I don't even have everything wrapped yet! I should probably be wrapping gifts or blowing up the balloons I plan to put in his room tomorrow, but I don't feel up to it.
In better news, I found a good motivation to walk every morning. As some of you know, I'm slowly losing my ability to walk. My mom and I think I might do better if I get back into the habit of walking the basement every morning. However, that in itself hasn't been enough for me to make morning walks a priority. Today, I've been thinking about Salt Lake Comic Con. That is coming up towards the end of September, and I want to be able to walk as much of the day as possible. There is nothing I hate more than having to cut my day short because I've run out of walking.
Salt Lake Comic Con is something I look forward to every year. I've been thinking about it a lot today because I'm trying to decide if I should purchase photo ops with John Barrowman and Catherine Tate individually while they are still available or wait to see if they do a Doctor Who group photo op. Opinions on this would be welcome.
Anyway, it wasn't until I was lying in bed during my first attempt to sleep that I realized SLCC is going to suck if I can't be there because I can't walk! Last year, I had to leave early one of the days because I couldn't walk anymore. It really sucked because I missed some awesome panels I had wanted to go to! I'm hoping and believing that is enough to get me up and walking every morning.
Well, my timer for my second attempt to sleep just dinged so I've got to wrap this up and get back to bed. Thank you for reading this far. I hope you are all having sweet dreams. Goodnight.