Setbacks from my Accident
Thursday, July 06, 2017
Last July today i was on a high, I had just finished physical therapy for my SI Joint and i was getting active,dropping weight and feeling great.
Then the worst possible thing happened on July 7 to give me a major setback - I was in a car accident which left me with two fractured vertebrae and in a back brace from July to November. I gained 20 lbs and it took me months to recover my strength, till I was able to get back to normal activity and not feel tired and achy every day.
I still need to get the weight off and when i tried my class doing exercises down on the mat i was met with intense pain ( I did have an emotional breakdown briefly- I just hate being that vulnerable and feeling that kind of pain after I worked so hard to overcome). I don't want to seem like a baby and not be able to do much and I just want to lose this weight I gained and be normal again.
Right now I'm feeling depressed this whole accident changed my life for the worse and yes I am improved by alot but I got all this weight that I gained and i can't seem to lose it, I'm stuck at 20-30 lbs on the machines and anytime i try something new or to push myself I end up in pain its like I can't seem to win.
Sorry for this being so long I'm just dealing with all this and I guess I pushed it aside trying not to get depressed this last year as I focused on recover and now that I'm healed all the emotional stuff is coming up.