Friday, May 26, 2017 - May Day Blog Series - Day 26
Friday, May 26, 2017
I realized this morning that in the last months, my life has been consumed with my June surgery date. Everything I've done or tried to do over that period is to work towards that date, and truthfully, it has taken much of the joy out of my life. Not that this is a particularly joyous time, as my husband continues to try to find a job and my mom seems to be entering a new phase with her Parkinson's disease, but still, there should be joy, and though I am facing elective hip replacement surgery, I am otherwise pretty healthy, as is my family. And my son, who could work harder in school, is a good kid and is making his way pretty well in the world. But as June 15 draws ever closer, it does seem to inhabit more and more of my thoughts. I will try to push it out of my consciousness for some period of time this weekend, as we have out of town relatives visiting over the long weekend and will spend time with them.
As far as my goals, I am doing okay. But my ultimate goal has been to drop some weight before surgery, and I am not doing well on that, despite eating well. I am stunned that the scale either doesn't move, or only moved incrementally down, and then up. I guess I never realized that the little bit of working out I used to do when I have successfully lost weight recently really had more impact than I thought it would. Oh to be able to do the things I know I took for granted...a little walk, 30 minutes on the treadmill, bike or elliptical.. Assuming my surgery is a success, and I can do those things again, I will never take them for granted.
So to update the goals:
1. commit to eating my planned meals and snacks, and no more - I did not have a good day yesterday, did a lot of stress eating.
2. do one seated workout of the several I have found on SP daily - no, not even my PT exercises yesterday
3. set aside 15 minutes in the middle of every day, just after lunch - well, I didn't do it right after lunch, but I got some prayer in, and I went to confession.
4. Blog- not since Wednesday, but here I am today
So I am committing to find some joy and try to sick to my goals today.