WHat The Heck Happened To Me?
Thursday, April 20, 2017
My last post was 1162 days ago. I calculated that out... it's 3.18 years. Or 166 weeks.
How the heck did that even happen? It doesn't feel like it's been that long. I remember writing it... fells like it's been a few months... maybe.
And speaking of that post, I never did the Color Run. I decided I didn't want to.
In fact, "I don't want" to has pretty much been the theme of these last few years.
I don't want to exercise. I don't want to cook. I don't want to count calories. I don't want to eat whole wheat (let's face it, compared to sweet bread, it's tastes like garbage!). I don't want to sacrifice. I don't want to give up sugar and soda. I don't want to think about all this. I don't want to go outside and get sweaty when I could be comfy and cool, cuddling with my dogs while playing video games. I don't want to do any of it.
It's the equivalent of a grown up temper tantrum. I'm self-aware enough to realize this, yet.... I still don't want to.
And there is nothing you can say that will make me want to. That's the cold hard truth. You can give me advice and encouragement. You can scare me, or guilt trip me. You can break my spirit (no one here has done that, it's just an example), but you can't make me want to do it.
I understand that I have to be the one to make me want it. I also understand that I don't even need to want to do something, in order to get off my rump and do it anyway. Wanting to sure helps though.
So I'm gonna make myself this promise.... I am gonna do my best to want to, and at least once a week I'm gonna do it even if I don't want to. "It" might change each time, cause "it" can be anything that will make me healthier.
Here's to doing it anyway. 🏋🏻🍷