Small update and some Spark thoughts...
I finally saw the gastro doc last week. She said the same thing my primary doc said - her first thought was that my symptoms sound very much like celiacs so we're going to test that again. I really don't think that is it though? I hear stories about celiacs who get really sick if they eat any gluten and I feel like that isn't me?
Her second thought was that I have done "internal damage" from the amount of ibuprofen I have taken and I need to heal my system. I had a rough weekend... had to drink a special drink and my stomach went nuts all weekend and is finally settling down today. I started a new medicine yesterday and I'm trying her new dietary recommendations. She wants me to eat bran cereal (I eat with almond milk) for breakfast and "large volumes of veggies" with a low fat protein at lunch. I have been packing spinach salads with chopped veggies and hard boiled egg. It has only been a little while so I haven't noticed any changes. Haven't lost any weight either, which is kinda crazy considering how sick I have been. Twice in the past week I have eaten basically broth for dinner because my stomach is so upset. Shrugs.
There is that saying along the lines of "I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired" THAT IS ME. I'm eating less junk than ever before, some days I struggle to even eat, I'm making sure to get some fitness in every day whether its a video or walking, and I'm still 190 pounds. So there is that. Done whining! But trying to stay hopefully that some of these changes will help how my body processes food and maybe burns it off too?
Work has been super duper busy, which I know isn't helping my stomach. I have an overwhelming desire for a day off with some self care. Thankfully the weather has turned around so I have gotten a ton of walking in! That helps. Calms me down! I have even gotten coworkers to join me and they agree - it feels so much better after you get a walk in!
Someone else has been super happy about walking... little lovebug Beatrice can't get enough of the sunshine!
And now Spark thoughts...
I've honestly completely lost my "Spark" / desire to use Spark since the site changes. A lot of what I used to love is gone - building new friendships, feeling like it was a safe space, being able to easily track and connect everything, being gamified into doing more with Sparkpoints.
I've basically been using Spark for food tracking. I hate the new "open" interface and I don't feel comfortable posting anymore. Even writing/sharing this blog makes me feel insecure because it seems like anyone and their mother will be able to read it. I feel like I've totally lost touch with the spark friends I was following closely. It is a huge bummer. SO if you're out there friends, please shoot me a message. I'd love to connect on instagram/facebook. I care about you!
I have been searching for other food tracking apps and considering leaving Spark. It is a real shame. I remember when I first joined and how it felt but that is gone now. Maybe others get motivated by strangers and crowds but that isn't me. Maybe people like the curated feed of success stories, but that isn't me. I like talking to the people who are in my boat, in my area, in my interests and things like that which seem to no longer be part of Spark. Maybe I just don't know where to look? School me perhaps? But overall I'm not feeling it anymore and this time it doesn't even feel worth trying to find the "spark" again... This doesn't mean I'm giving up on eating better and moving more! It just means this resource might not be the right fit for me anymore. Anyone else have thoughts on this? I'd love to hear them!