Jekyll & Hyde Weekends
Monday, February 06, 2017
I don't understand what happens to me on weekends. Okay, no, maybe I do. I can take a guess at least.
I spend a lot of energy during the week "being good"... I force myself out of bed. I do workouts. I make myself park far away and walk further. I research recipes, cook food, pack lunches and snacks. I watch coworkers go out to eat. I watch them share a pack of cookies. I go home and drink more water, not a glass of wine. Then the weekend comes and my willpower is gone. Friends want to go out, family wants to eat out for birthday celebrations, I decide I can have a drink or two. Next thing I know I'm like man I ate a bunch of doritos and had three beers for Superbowl Dinner. Then I hate myself. Then I start being good for five more days in a row again.
This has been my problem for YEARS. Even the first time I started Spark and actually lost weight. Here I am about a month solid into workouts and making an effort and I'm still about where I started. I swear it is these weekends killing me. It is like the 5/7 days mean nothing. It is a bummer. I don't want to give EVERYTHING up. I will go insane. So why is balance so hard? I really do feel like I go full Jekyll and Hyde on the weekends, like everything I am Monday-Friday flips on itself like a crazy person. Blahhhhh.
I got some of my test results back from all my doctors visits. I have a followup next week to get more info but some of them were a bit concerning. Made a few changes per the nurse before I go back but I'm still curious to see if there are a root causes for it. More to come I suppose. But today is definitely one of those days where I can barely keep my eyes open. I went on a nice walk at lunch and will be doing it again after work (hello 60 degrees in February!) but I still would love nothing more than to crawl into bed right now. Sigh.
Anyways, just needed to vent a bit about my weekend problems. Hopefully now that the "birthday celebrations" are winding down I won't feel as pressured to eat out 6 times over a weekend. That will be a good start, I hope! Trying to keep this ball rolling even if I'm not seeing any results. Maybe it will all fall into place eventually? Again - one can only hope. And keep trying!