The Number 30
Monday, January 30, 2017
I was prepped for a not-so-good weigh in this morning but I was still bummed by a 2lb gain.
I was SO GOOD most of last week. I did some great workouts. My tummy was kind of upset all week so I didn't even eat as much as I could have. My 30th birthday was Thursday and that is when things started to slide (naturally!) My husband made reservations at my fave Mexican place and when we got there he surprised me and a bunch of my friends were already there! I had two drinks and arroz con pollo and fresh guac and chips. It was such a good time and I was so grateful people came out for it! Then... Our favorite restaurant FINALLY reopened 6 months after the flood so we went on Friday - I had 2 more drinks and I went for 2 shrimp tacos (one minus the tortillas) and shared some of my husband's burger. Saturday we went to visit a brewery we wanted to try - more drinks. So maybe this pattern is emerging - drinks?! lol.
I didn't have a cake or a cupcake or anything! But yes I did enjoy some beer. It was my 30th birthday though cmonnn.
So I am back on track this week! It has been a tough day. Little Beatrice has been sick all weekend and I took her into the vet today. She's gonna be okay I think. Fingers crossed these meds help her! We were woken up 5x a night for the past couple of nights and I can definitely see a correlation between my lack of sleep and craving junk. Whew.
Plus my anxiety has been on orange borderline red levels recently. Not so sure what to do... might try a yoga video tonight perhaps? The sleep trouble isn't helping that either.
That being said, times have been tough. The world hasn't been so nice lately and it's easy to feel kinda bad. Instead of letting a milestone birthday bother me or feel negative, I made a decision to use it as an excuse to put some good back into the world. I set myself a goal to complete 30 Random Acts of Kindness for my 30th birthday and I did it!
I'm not telling you this for any pats on the back or attention. I almost wasn't going to mention it at all. But guys IT FELT SO GOOD. The surprise in people's eyes, the smiles on their faces, even the silent warm and fuzzy knowing of an anonymous deed... I'm telling you about what I did because it affirmed the belief that in times of darkness you can light your own candle and spread the glow to others. It's not so hard. Heck, many of my acts were even free.
I'm so lucky to have so many great things/people in my life and to have been given so many days on this planet so far. It's a privilege denied to many and this exercise helped to remind me to make it count. I'm going to try to keep this going for as long as I can and I am challenging you to do the same. Be the light! Be the good! And chins up buttercups!
Trying to hold onto that feeling, throw myself back into being "good" "most of the time" and also treating myself gently too. Hoping to hear back from some doctor tests this week (good news is my skin doc visit last week resulted in one thing being benign. I'll take it!) I have a new DECADE ahead of me and many new days to explore. We might not know what the future holds and it might seem bleak some days, but I'm gonna hug my pup tight and try to focus on being the best me that I can be. There's your pep talk! Lol. Thanks for listening!