Wednesday, January 18, 2017
It's been a long time since I've blogged. Not really sure what I'm here to say, but I feel so restless, so sometimes you've just gotta grab the keyboard and see where it takes you.
I have been in a rut for what seems like forever. It truly has been a long time since I've felt myself in any real control. My husband and I jointed Weight Watchers last winter and both of us did well, he lost about 40 lbs, I lost almost 30..and then the darndest thing happened. I started to have all sorts of hip pain, something that I had dealt with a few years back and knew I had arthritis in there. Long story short, I was in agony and the agony was made even worse when I tried to go to the gym. Tried the treadmill and elliptical, neither of worked particularly well, and the bike, well, just forget about the bike. Funny thing about me, my eating is always so much more under control when I am going to the gym. I'm not saying I'm working out so hard I'm burning tons of calories, but I feel so much better about myself that I just eat better.
I first tried to go to PT to see if I could strengthen those muscles around the hip and find some relief, but that didn't work. Doing the exercises was agonizing, and I'm just not a "no pain, no gain" kind of girl. The fall was super busy with the election (I run my city's elections), so I was just popping NSAIDs left and right and trying to plod my way through. I finally saw an orthopedist last month, and he confirmed what I pretty much already knew: in two years I went from the very onset of arthritis to my hip being completely swallowed up by it..nothing but bone on bone. I need a replacement. So I have been trying, I kid you not, for weeks to get in touch with a doctor that by many accounts is the best there is in doing this kind of surgery, he's at New England Baptist Hospital in Boston. I have not been able to reach this man's office to the extent of being able to make an appointment. I will admit, I have some doubt about whether I really want to be a patient to a doctor whose office I cannot even seem to get a live voice to talk to with, but I feel the need to keep trying, at least for a while longer.
So anyway, once I stopped going to the gym, I found myself having a harder and harder time making good food choices. Though I have not put all my weight back on, I certainly have had a few pounds creep back, and I've certainly not lost any for a while, between not exercising, the holidays, dealing with the pain, etc, and a few other non-food related issues like my husband being out of work, my mom's failing health, and a few other things.
I guess I was tugged here to just tell my story and ask for some good vibes from my fellow sparkers. It's been a long time since I've been really active here, and I feel like such a slug to not be doing anything in the fitness department. But this is the place to find solace, I know this, and sometimes a good kick in the pants. Kick away...
Thanks for listening, and have a great day.