I'm not looking for pity
Thursday, January 12, 2017
... but I could use some tips and advice!
There is a reason one of those "work out every day for 30 days" challenges won't work for me. There is a reason why I'm afraid to sign up for things like those "challenges" or strict workout plans.
My body IS a challenge in itself.
I have two doctor's appointments next week and I am glad because I've definitely reached a point of major frustration with my health.
Without going into too much detail, my endometriosis is acting up pretty badly. This happens about 4x a year and when it does it grinds everything to a halt.
To give you an idea, I didn't get much sleep last night from the pain. I alternate between sweating/burning up and being freezing cold. I dragged myself out of bed this morning and put on clothes (pretty good outfit for how I feel, go self) and dragged myself to the car. Somehow made it to my desk, where I had to bend over and put my head down several times before lunch. My coworker offered to drive me to get sushi and I barely made it to his car and back to my desk. I have been sitting here ever since feeling poorly. I'm mad at it, especially because the weather is SO nice today and I should be outside going for a walk or two. But I know when I get home later I will want to take a shower and lay down with a heating pad and call it a day. On my way home from work yesterday I had cramps so bad I could swear I felt them in my chest. I don't mean to seem dramatic but that was how it felt.
I used to be mad at myself on days like this for being unable to do a workout. Now I know that it's okay sometimes just to focus on what you can do with what you've got. Maybe I'll take this evening to pin more healthy recipes or read one of my weight watchers/clean eating/prevention magazines.
I am not throwing in the towel! But I am taking a little side trip with a different focus for a few days. Anyone have any experience with this type of thing? What do you do when you feel poorly? Do you "forgive" yourself for doing things like skipping a workout when you aren't well? I'm really trying not to shame spiral again but I am also trying to stay in touch with my body and trying to be understanding. Thanks!