800 cal Blood Sugar Diet, week 10 weigh in
Tuesday, September 13, 2016
Starting weight 10 weeks ago 79.2 kg
Started and of week 8 at 76.3 kg (167.5 lbs)
Now weigh 75.0 kg (165.3 lbs)
Lost 0.2 kg or 1/4 of a pound
Starting HBA1c 8.2 in May
August HBA1c 6.6
Only 0.2 kg but it is still a loss. I had a bit of a set back last Thursday, got very weepy and upset. I could have been that my house had been full of family for 3 weeks then, after they went home and I had a rest, I suddenly felt like my house was empty. The good news is we will be seeing them again in 5 weeks but only for 3 days as they are going to New York for the school vacation period.
I decided to take a few days off the diet and think things through. Funny thing is though, I couldn't bring myself to eat more or go back to the old way of eating. I still had cauliflower mash with my Sunday lunch and courgetti spaghetti with my bolognaise meat sauce. Still, I must have relaxed somewhat as I allowed myself a few glasses of wine during the weekend which is probably what halted my weight loss. Fortunately, it didn't change my blood glucose readings and I am still steady around 95 to 105 (5.2 to 5.8). In order to get an idea of where I am on the HBA1c scale I worked out 10 days readings and did an average which came out at 5.9, That even included the raised day when it was 131 (7,2) so hopefully I am well on track for my next test.
Having had time to think about my life, the diet, my illness, I have come to some understandings.
I remember how I felt when I was told I was diabetic, it was such a shock. All the why me questions, what have I done wrong, etc. Finally, there is acceptance and you learn to live with it. Then the medications were not working for me and my doctor suggested I go onto insulin - oh how I wish I had found this diet then. He told me it would be simpler and the drugs would bypass my delicate stomach and not cause any more problems. Sitting there with the needle in my hand, waiting to do my first jab. It took me around 40 minutes to pluck up the courage, then when I did it and it didn't hurt too much, once again I learned to live with it. Every now and then having a little cry and a poor me moment.
My blip last week came down to the realization that this diet is probably going to be my life. People have asked what will I do when 'I come off it'. People have suggested all the weight will go back on, that it is not sustainable, that it will fail. Well, there can be no 'coming off it', this is my life and, because it makes me well it has to be sustainable. It is surprising how quickly the body gets used to less calories and no longer craves carbohydrates. Finally, for it to 'fail' means my health will fail. I have seen too many improvements to doubt that this diet works. From now on it is no longer a diet, it is my plan for life.
With that realized I have to learn to accept it and stay true to myself. But because it is a long term thing, I have to allow myself to be less than perfect and accept that sometimes I will slip up. I just have to remember to get back onto it. When you are over weight you go on a diet, if it fails you carry on as you were before. If you are a diabetic and you fall off the diet it could mean blindness, kidney failure, amputation, heart disease, stroke and so on. That is not an option for me. I must continue.
The diet claims to be able to reverse diabetes but, if that is possible, I don't expect it to happen any time soon for me. I am in it for the long term, if not for the rest of my life. If I can't reverse the diabetes I want to at least slow down the future consequences.
That in mind, I can't see the point of doing a blog as it will just the the same thing week in week out. From now on I will write something when I have something different to say, like when I get my next HBA1c results or after my visit to the cardiologist in October or when I reach another weight loss milestone. I won't be writing about it but I have not given up.