Monday, September 12, 2016
I decided last Sept. 16th, 2015 to get in better shape. Of course it started out strong...I ate well, tracked all my food etc, Got my 10,000 steps every day....it was going well. Then, as always, it levels off quickly and I hit a wall.
In the meantime, I got something I always wanted. I always said it would be great if someone did it with me. Even greater...my husband. Well November 2015 he does just that. I signed him up for spark and he started logging everything he eats. He wears his fitbit and regularly gets his 10,000+ steps a day. He has been hugely successful and lost over 40 pounds. Here is where the jealousy steps in. It fell off of him. I know he worked at it and controlled his calories, but seriously he eats a pint of ice cream almost every night and is maintaining. ??? He has a hard job and gets a lot of exercise so I know that helps, and I'm very proud of him...but also jealous.
Anyway....so I've slowly fell off the wagon. Getting dangerously close to gaining most of the weight back I'd lost this year, which was only 24 pds for the whole year. I think I lost them all in the first 3 months, and maintained most of the year and threw it to the wind over the last month. I know i'm slipping when I do it...not sure why i continue to let it happen. Yes I've been under a lot of stress at work the past month. Yes I've felt like a failure as a wife. Yes I've stopped tracking my food and yes I've stopped trying to exercise. You'd think I'd try harder since I recognize all these triggers.
So I'm rambling, I don't like to write blogs. I just am documenting my progress and how I feel as I'm starting over for the 1200th time. So time to get off the self pity train and move forward. MOVE. FORWARD...and KEEP moving. Thanks for reading. :)