Today I busted through - literally - one of the biggest obstacles keeping me from moving toward my goals. I took a hammer to my Kindle Fire! I hit it, and hit it, and hit it until the insides started to pop out!!!!!
While that tablet was useful in several ways, it was much more of a hindrance to living the life I want to live. I felt compelled to have it with me at all times, constantly checking my email, listening to radio shows, and playing games for hours at a time. The convenience of the tablet has an addictive quality for me that my computer just doesn't. Go figure!
I've broken my tablet habit in the past by giving it to a friend for a month or more. But after getting it back and enjoying a few weeks of reasonable use, I slowly eased into Kindle-binge mode again. It is just too addictive for me to handle - so it was hammer time!
How, you might ask, did my Kindle-binging affect my life so negatively that I felt the need to take such a drastic step? It became a time-sucking master that,
** was an unconscious distraction when I was working (I work at home);
** kept me from doing things in the evening that needed to be done or that I like to do;
** kept me from getting to bed/sleep on time;
** which resulted in me not getting up on time the next morning;
** which meant I was tired the next day instead of well-rested;
** and I didn't get my morning exercise routine started;
** and I cut my prayer time short and/or was sleepy during it;
** the next day I was tired and so had less strength to change the habit.
I could go on, but you get the picture.
I know other people are able to use their tablets without the problem of addictive use, but I'm not one of those people. My fellow Sparkers in the "Living Binge Free" team know what I mean, especially the feeling of being compelled - as by an outside force - to do something that you don't really want to do. That's where I was with the tablet, and it's just not worth it!
My heart and mind already feel lighter and free, and I'm looking forward to a good night's sleep and tomorrow morning's prayer time and exercise.