Things have changed
Monday, May 23, 2016
Been stuck around this weight for a long time. I realized I have actually learned to maintain. I need to loose 40 lbs. so maintaining is good, but I need to move on . My highest weight ever was 227 I remember being horrified when I saw that # on the scale . I went down to 182 and had a baby (at 44!) and since have hovered. Around 195. I'm a size 14 or 16 depending on brand. What I also realized is that I no longer binge , I have found other things to do. Not always productive , like FB , but not as damaging. Our diet at home has changed over the years too. We use to have beef at least 3 times a week. We are down to about once a week. We eat a lot more veggies, have no soda or juices in the house and I exercise a little every week . So on days like today when I feel frustrated I must remind myself of some of our accomplishments . At 52 and obese by the new standards , I'm not taking any medicines. So yeah , I do have willpower and motivation, and I feel good about myself even though I'm not a size 6 (yet!). Nobody is going to wncourage me into doing this like I can so I need to remind myself often that I can do this again .