Roller Coaster weekend
Tuesday, April 12, 2016
Sad/embarrassing/eye opening/not great moment this weekend... Visited a theme park with friends this weekend and went on a few roller coasters for the first time since high school. My husband does not do rides but my friend's husband does, so we split up to do the rides for a bit. Turns out I do not fit well in the stupid molded seats of most rides. Had to have help getting the safety belt fastened across my belly on one ride. Totally embarrassed, but I DID fit in every ride (though not comfortably), and my friend really didn't seem to act like it was a big deal, like it was a non-issue...they had the seats at the front of the line for a couple of the coasters and I tried them out and was like "wow, I don't know if I'll fit well enough to ride this" and he was like "it's up to you if you want to try or not, I think they have one seat in each row that is a little different with a double buckle". No major drama, just like, whatever... Biggest issue was totally keeping my cool like it was no big deal and just rolling with it (success, no tears this time). The thing is, I know I'm overweight, but not quite fitting in a roller coaster is not something I expected to face this weekend. I guess I don't (or didn't?) see myself as THAT big. Most of the time my weight and larger body size really doesn't interfere with my day to day life (other than self conscious body image issues at times). Mobility, etc is usually not a big deal. I can walk and move and do all the activities I want/need to do with no problems. Losing weight/fat to this point has been more about feeling better about my outward appearance, preventing future weight related health issues frequently in my family history, maybe increasing my energy levels...but worrying about being excluded from fun activities because of my size, that's new.