Do It Yourself
Monday, February 22, 2016
This morning I am being a little lazy and just laying here drinking coffee and admiring my flowers. I am finding them extra pretty this morning. I have bought myself flowers every week since I've filed for divorce three years ago. Sometimes, rather than wait for someone to do something for you, you just got to do stuff for yourself. Sometimes the person you have to lean on, and support you, is your own inner voice, your own spirit, yourself. I guess these are lessons I've learned with age. I've said it before, but I believe I was successful at losing that 180 plus pounds and kept more than 150 off for over 6 years is because I feel worthy. I treat myself with respect. That's why I feed myself real food and run... It makes me feel good.
I have a little cold started so I decided I wasn't up to going running this morning and that's okay. I will walk at lunch. I did a beautiful 12 mile beach walk with a friend on Saturday and a 6 mile run through a lovely park with another friend on Sunday.
I am a week shy of being able to say I am 2 months sugar free, but I'm doing well on that one. My dad gave me flowers instead of chocolate for Valentines day. My dude has been out of town, but he's aware Im not eating sugar.
I am a pound shy of being able to say that I've lost 20 pounds since the new year, but 19 pounds gone feels good. I recently went for a check up and all my cholesterol levels, glucose levels.. everything.. was in the "optimal" range. So treating myself well is paying off.
On Friday, my loan closed.. so this week, I am the only name on my deed to my house. I was able to buy my ex out of the house. Independence feels good. Home repair projects are in my near future. I've already started, and installed a new porch light this weekend... painted some flowers in the bathroom. Now, I have to start car shopping too. I've saved enough to buy myself my dream car, a slightly use ice blue Mini Cooper with white racing stripes. Life is good when you take care good care of yourself.
When I hear people say "getting old sucks", (although I agree with this slightly), I think "wait, but I am more confident then I was when I was younger. I am more independent that I was when I was younger. I am more energetic than I was when I was younger. Maybe getting old kind of rocks!" I guess it depends what you're taking from life.