Better version of Me
Wednesday, February 03, 2016
I always struggle losing weight. So many reasons. I used to compare myself to others, and since my hair will always be thin and my nose imperfect losing weight won't change that. I used to struggle every time with becoming obsessed about food when attempting to diet, and would naturally cave in. We all fall off the horse sometimes, but that would cause such feelings of guilt and hopelessness that I would be done again. Not meeting small goals would finish me off quickly.
For some reason this time feels different. I am more comfortable in my own skin. Wearing smaller jeans would be great, but getting healthier is really the goal now. I am no longer beating myself up about eating a "bad" food, just realize I have to eat less of it or get back up and try again. Now my aim is smaller goals, and if I don't attain them this week then maybe I will next.
I want to lose 1lb a week. I started to be frustrated that I only lost 4.8 lbs in January but realized that a) I made this months goal, b) I am not on the biggest loser, c) I can always amp it up when I feel like doing it as long as I stay steady in the meantime, d) AND did I mention I am 4.8 lbs less than January 1?
Other than that I made a very good egg drop soup at home, but it needs tweaking a bit. I threw away 10 different granola bars that were hiding at my desk at work. I don't like them so why friggin eat them? If I'm gonna eat foods I don't really like lets do green.