Before the before
Tuesday, January 26, 2016
I found an old picture of myself at my heaviest. I think I was 296lbs here (2005?). I was a bridesmaid in my friend's wedding. I was so uncomfortable. My feet were swollen and puffing out of my shoes. Heck my everything was swollen!
I regret letting my weight hold me back from life. I am a fun outgoing person and I shut a lot of that down (& people out) as I packed on the pounds. I had to forgive myself for a lot of mistakes and accept God's forgiveness too. It was a conscious decision and changed my whole life.
I hovered between 250 & 260 for the last 5 years or so. That 40 to 50lb loss resolved my infertility issues & I have a beautiful little girl now. I'm way more active and more comfortable in my own skin. Despite those changes I was diagnosed with diabetes last November It was a shock. I made my Doc redo the a1c test cause I thought it had to be wrong. It wasn't. Now I take pills for my blood pressure & diabetes. Diabetes is common in my family and I've seen the damage it causes first hand. Diabetes took my dad...I miss him every day.
I'm writing this to say ENOUGH IS ENOUGH! I absolutely refuse to give in. I will not let food and unhealthy choices prevent me from living a full life and being there for my daughter. That's it. I'm making the choice.
Whew! All that was really more than I intended when I started writing. Guess it needed to get out. :)
Anywho, I'm on my way folks! Down to 236! It's just the beginning. I'm super excited about the opportunities tomorrow will bring!