I had intended to start a "series" back in November, and then the Paris attacks happened, and that sort of flummoxed me.
I was left bewildered and confused, amongst other things.
I was shocked.
One friend had decided to go to another concert, even though she had tickets for the Bataclan that night.
5 of the friends she would have gone with were killed.
My son's partner lost a university friend, another was shot in the leg and survived.
A colleagues brother's best friend was shot in the stomach.
Former students also lost friends.
And so it goes on and on..........
And I am a foreigner who lives a long way from Paris.
Whilst I was not impacted directly, it had a profound effect on me.
Strangely my partner had been more affected by the Charlie Hebdo shootings. My only explanation is that Charlie Hebdo is a part of his culture, of his youth, but isn't of mine. These November 13th attacks on music, sport, having fun, going out, youth, and not so young, athiest, christian, muslim, seemed so senseless, so indiscriminate.
But the leaders got it wrong in my opinion.
It wasn't a war.
Not in the sense that the Syrian refugees fleeing for their lives are suffering from a war situation. The HONY portraits sum that up so well. www.humansofnewyork.com/
So I was left even more confused, and shocked by some people's reactions.
And I needed to and need to shift my focus.
The series of blogs I had planned on Sophrology just didn't happen then, even though the "mass mental illness" is a major concern of Prof Caycedo. I didn't find in me the positive energy that I needed to deal with my inner conflicts and the actual writing.
But now it is time, and I will do my best to blog weekly or so, to try to explain what Sophrology is, what it can do, and how it has helped me.
For any of you who know me, you will not be surprised that it will include personal anecdotes.
There may very well be less pictures than those of you who have read my earlier blogs are used to.