The funny thing about advice
Wednesday, December 16, 2015
I appreciate all the kind words I have received but I was also a bit put off by the last one. OH 3 healthy meal and two snacks. It is not that hard. .... Well, let us assume I know that already. I know exactly how to eat right. But how did I get here then. I snack a lot. I eat when I am sad , I eat when I am upset and I eat because it is the only pleasure sometimes that I can still afford. It is telling an addict not to be all fussy about the addiction since just stop doing it.
I told myself the same advice quite a few times. But somehow this hasn't worked in 10 years for me. So I guess, this blog is my new answer. I refuse to censor my feelings and I refuse to not feel defeated when the solution is easy. I know the answer is there all the time but I feel hungry. I haven't figured out how not to eat. I wish I could just stop eating to avoid all this . LIke an alcoholic to stop drinking. But I can't . So excuse me for still feeling defeated since I have to face my demons every day. I have made progress but some days I feel like I am down under so deep , I can't even hear myself scream.
Now I will go to work and make other feel better. I guess I have eaten all my feelings for too long. Sorry for all the venting. But I am done sugarcoating my own crap.