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Monday, November 16, 2015

Tiger, bear, or in the interest of complete discloser, even a really slow zombie!

November Accountability Update:

My husband and I have started sprint training together. The secret to sprint training is, you're supposed to give each sprint 100% of YOUR effort, as if you're really running for your life. Unsettling revelation... If I ever REALLY needed to run for my life, I would probably die!

During our first sprinting session, I couldn't stop laughing. It felt like I was running in slow motion, like Pamela Anderson in the opening scenes of Baywatch. I'm telling myself that I'm really not that slow. It just feels that way, because my husband is SO fast. emoticon

Sprinting is supposed to have amazing health benefits, so we've committed to a 10 week trial. We've only done it four times, so far, but I LOVE it! My speed seems to be improving with each new session, but if at the end of this trial, I still feel slow, I won't worry too much about it. When my body's fight-or-flight response is triggered, my natural inclination has always been to fight.

At the end of a recent Primal Potential blog post, Elizabeth Benton asked, "What's your definition of a warrior?" This definition resonates with me, "A warrior is someone who pushes themselves to the very brink of what they can handle, and chooses to keep going; because warriors know the inner purity of what is calling them forward."

"Going in one more round when you don't think you can -- that's what makes all the difference n your life." Rocky Balboa

Our flight-or-fight response is primal; and I'm discovering how to use the power of my primal potential to fight to achieve what I want most, to live inspired, and to create my best life. I am working for what I want. I am no longer afraid to be uncomfortable. I am no longer afraid to do things that others might not understand. I am no longer afraid to let go of concepts and attachments that do not serve me. I am strong. I am focused. I have the courage to choose what I want for myself. I will embrace each new challenge. I will not run from my life. I will fight for my best life; and I will enjoy the journey. I am not a martyr. "No matter what has or hasn't happened in my past, I will be the hero of my own story." I am a warrior.

The Biggest Loser Challenge ends Wednesday! I was extremely lucky to be part of the incredible Black Panthers team. The team leaders and my teammates were all amazing. I'm grateful for all the new friends that I made. It was my first BLC experience and I've decided that it will also be my last. I've realized that since my goal is to achieve fat loss and freedom from dieting, weight loss driven challenges are now counterproductive for me. Throughout the challenge, I found myself struggling against "diet" mentality.

"Dieting teaches us that there should be this linear consistent trajectory of a couple of pounds a week and we measure our success against that, and it's crap. It's absolute crap. The deal is this, our progress is going to ebb and flow. We will have detours. We will have hard months. It may take us months to tackle a particularly difficult habit, and that's ok. Does losing a steady two pounds a week reflect true habit adoption and change? No! There is no ideal rate of fat loss or rate of progress and there shouldn't be." -- Elizabeth Benton

The competition aspect of the challenge did not motivate me. It triggered some of my old self-destructive behaviors... over exercising, self-doubt, allowing the scale to define my success, comparison, etc. I know where that old path leads. I've been down that road too many times before. It leads to temporary weight loss (includes muscle & water) not fat loss. It leads to stress and unhappiness, not to permanent success and joy. I'm DONE doing the same things over and over again. I have the courage to choose what I want for myself; and I have chosen a new path.

So, with only 6 weeks left until 2016, I will....

Chase consistency, not perfection
Get 8 - 9 hours sleep as often as possible
Eat foods I love that love me back
Track what I eat, how much, when, and how I feel before and after
Drink lots of purified water
Do LESS cardio
Slow deliberate movement daily
TA's Meta & rebounder workouts. I LOVE how feel afterward.
Sprint train with my husband, once a week.

The old me would have been fearful, stressed, and obsessed with being too weak to say no to all the temptations that the upcoming holiday season holds. This year, I'm excited. Bring it on! Holiday feasts and parties, family gatherings and celebrations will be opportunities to practice my new habits, while making new memories with our family and friends. I've already started testing primal & paleo versions of some traditional dishes to bring to Thanksgiving and Christmas. The only thing anyone will notice about them, is that they are delicious!

"Try not. Do or do not. There is no try." -- "Control, control, you must learn control." Yoda

I've said goodbye to using the word TRYING. I realized that using it was my way of providing myself with an out and allowed me to remain uncommitted. I've replaced it with LEARNING. When you're learning a new skill, there's no expectations of perfection, only expectations of commitment and effort. Plus there's an added bonus of an automatic willingness to be patient during the learning process.

"What is your choice? You make it each day. You choose in each and every moment. The blessing of this realization is that you can choose differently in each and every moment." Steve Rice

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  • no profile photo CD15941605
    I have painted the back of my bathroom door in blackboard paint and use it as an inspiration board, writing quotes that remind me that I can do this. Hey, you gotta be in there anyway...

    I just wanted you to know that, "I've said good bye to using the word trying" made it to the bathroom door.

    1949 days ago
    Great post. Just what I need to read to day. We can do it.
    1977 days ago
  • CANNIE50
    So much to love about this blog, your attitude, your honesty & willingness to learn, & you. I, too, had to stop any sort of weight loss challenge for the exact same reasons, it triggered unhealthy responses in me. I so relate to your sprint training. My sprint is someone else's slow pace but it's MY sprint and I am deeply grateful that I can run because many people can't. I am so glad to be reading your wise words again and look forward to more.
    1977 days ago
    I FINALLY get to post a comment. yes! Call it some strange planetary alignment, crazy cosmos weirdness or I dunno what, but I have been trying to comment on this fabulous blog for days and I kept getting an error. Fingers crossed that this actually sticks, ha!

    And now on to the real reason I fought with my iPad to get this tiny window of words to cooperate:

    Your blog was full of so much, well, everything!
    Strength and Power with those sprints. I'm terrified and completely supportive though! It sounds exciting, energizing and invigorating too. And exhausted, yep. I'm sure you felt like crawling under the grass afterwards eh? What amazing bodies we have that can do this!

    How interesting that your workout dates with Hubby helped you shed some emotional mindsets that you were once stuck within. That wasn't why you committed to the routine, but was a lovely bonus!!! Sweat therapy? Sort of I guess, and wahoo!

    I swear I can feel your energy from here. Radiating everywhere! This is a great time for you. Right now. I can feel it. Go Marki Goooooooooo!

    1979 days ago
    Love this Marki - you inspire me to find my primal potential. Sprinting is one of my favorite things to do, it's exciting to see the progress you make each sprint. Power on girl!
    1979 days ago
    Loved your blog, thank you for sharing. Speedwork ,so much fun I hope to get back into it soon. emoticon
    Every Warrior of the Light has felt afraid of going into battle.
    Every Warrior of the Light has, at some time in the past, lied or betrayed someone.
    Every Warrior of the Light has trodden a path that was not his.
    Every Warrior of the Light has suffered for the most trivial of reasons. Every Warrior of the Light has, at least once, believed he was not a Warrior of the Light.
    Every Warrior of the Light has failed in his spiritual duties.
    Every Warrior of the Light has said 'yes' when he wanted to say 'no.'
    Every Warrior of the Light has hurt someone he loved.
    That is why he is a Warrior of the Light, because he has been through all this and yet has never lost hope of being better than he is.
    Paolo Coelho
    1980 days ago
    How cool to be training together!
    1980 days ago
  • FIREFLY4407
    Fantastic blog Marki! I have also been focusing on "Eat foods I love that love me back" and it has made a huge difference - looking forward to meals without feeling deprived, yet managing cravings. Having managed the transition from summer into fall (was a little bumpy but I'm still here), I'm also feeling pretty strong headed into the holiday season.

    Nice job pushing outside of your comfort zone. You are really finding the right path that works for you - thanks for sharing so we can learn along with you.

    And don't worry, if you ever do need to run for your life, the adrenaline will kick in and you'll be out of there in a flash!

    1981 days ago
  • DSJB9999
    Great thinking - You are so right! Fantastic goals/activities planned emoticon emoticon and keep it positive! Its so true negativity can be destructive! emoticon
    1981 days ago
    Dang Girl!
    You are on serious fire....forever! I love this blog. I love the maturity and self awareness and complete sense that it all makes. I too am shifting away from the lifelong diet and moving towards just becoming a better me. Our best versions are being chiseled into the light. I am so happy for you about the holidays. I bet this will be one of many wonderful years. Good for you for knowing what things bring back behaviors you are just done with. Good riddance negativity!! I love this, and I'm just freaking thrilled for you because I can feel it in your tone and your words, you got this.....
    1981 days ago
    I am there with you in the slow department! But consistent practice should eventually bring some speed! Or so I tell myself. emoticon

    Love your idea of making dishes for the holidays that taste great, but also achieve your goals. I may have to copy this! emoticon
    1981 days ago
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