It's Been Such a Long Time......
Thursday, November 05, 2015
Anyone as old as I am might recognize those words from the song by the rock band Boston from back in the 80's. Great song, and not really on point with what's on my mind, but it HAS been a long time since I've bared my soul here on SP. Doesn't mean I haven't been here, I have, but my musings have been more private lately, in the SP journal. However, I think today's thoughts need accountability, and some advice, so here I am.
How many times can one make a commitment to oneself and then not keep it? So if that commitment is never kept, what good is continuing to make it? What do you do to finally get yourself to the point of REALLY getting it done? How do you differentiate yesterday's and the day before's, and the week before's and the month before's and the year before's broken promises from today's "this is the day it begins?"
With my uncountable broken pledges, I have lost all credibility to the most important person I need credibility to: myself. So how do I now get over the hump of getting started? I think it is not an issue of sincerity, because I certainly believe that I mean it every time I say it. But maybe I don't, because it's easy to say, right? It's the follow-through that is not easy. And it's especially not easy when you don't seem willing to do the work, to make the better choices, to drown out the voice that says, "eat, you'll feel better." So I guess it is possible that though I think I mean it, the proof is in the proverbial pudding; my refusal (and it is refusal as opposed to inability, because I am able, we are all able) means that as much as I say I want to and understand the need to do this, I do not really so want or understand. I can't imagine why I would not so want, nor can I imagine that I do not understand, because I'm pretty smart, and yet, here I am, having had no positive movement towards my goals in years.
I don't think I'm saying anything that most folks who might take the time to read this musing have not experienced, though for everyone else's sake, I hope they have not done this as often as I. And the last thing I'm going to do is to make the promise or pledge again, though I remain as determined as ever that I've got to do something to get some pounds off and live a more healthful lifestyle.
Funny, usually, when I start a blog, I just start writing and a solution evolves as I write. And here I am, a lot of words in and....nothing. No solution. Nothing even percolating that I need to write my way out of, or into, depending on how you look at it.
So I guess the time has come to ask my fellow Sparkers for some ideas. What have you guys done to make today's promise the one that gets fulfilled?