Fell off track... a little
Monday, October 19, 2015
So, through my busy life of nursing school, motherhood and work I, for a week or two, lost my way. I found myself feeling anxious and overwhelmed and the only comfort for those feelings was of course, fooooooood!! I abandoned my breakfast spinach smoothies and almond butter sandwiches and baby carrots for donuts, pizza and fast food!! And oh... it was delightful for a day or so. Well, not even a day. I started feeling a little... um... gross. I didn't realize what kinds of changes I had been making and HOW those changes made me feel until I stopped making them.
After I my "fall off the wagon" week, i looked back. I had still been tracking my food intake and calories because I'm nothing if not honest and I was NOT shocked to see just how many calories are in a funnel cake. I was however amazed by how lethargic I had been feeling. ALSO, I was, surprisingly more depressed than I had ever felt. Maybe it was because I felt that I had betrayed my body and my goals, but I think also it was a lot to do with the foods I was eating. On a "good" day, I take in anywhere from 1500 to 1800 calories and that's enough for me. I am never hungry at the end of the day and I'm never "stuffed" either. Last week I was averaging anywhere from 3000-3500 calories (don't judge) and I was either hungry and sometimes even sick to my stomach from fullness. It was never just "satisfied" or normal... one extreme or the other prevailed!
So my takeaway from all of this is that I'm grateful to have fallen off the wagon for a while. It helped me to see how much eating right actually makes me feel good. It's sometimes hard to see the end results and it sometimes feels like I'm not making that big of a change at all. I mean, I have lost 62 pounds, but I have 120 to go still. It was good this week to see that the changes that I'm making are sustainable and they really are helpful because they have been making me feel SO much better. I will allow myself to have the occasional donut or the extra slice of pizza every once in a while, but not to the extent that I did this past week. Hopefully, this week has taught me a valuable lesson!!!