The Questions I ask myself!!!

Hello everyone! I'm sorry it's been a while since my last blog and the pictures blogs about how each Month has been going. I hope to get caught up soon, but just had to share my thoughts I had since last week and over the weekend....

So I'm a woman and as many of you know, once a month we get very emotional. That is my NICE way of saying it. I know my MALE doctor I had for many years told me when I started at the age of 11 this was a "good thing. I should be happy about it." Yeah right?!! But anyways, I shall move on...

Many questions came to me last week. Like why is it that I LOVE FRIED FOODS?!!? Why couldn't I get that excited about Broccoli or something?!!? Why is it every time I walk into Market Basket, they smell like Fried Chicken?!! I'm not walking into KFC here?!!? Aaaagggghhhh, that does not help, and especially during that wonderful time of the month! Just so you know, I have not given into the craving, so we are still doing good!

Also, why is it that I'm all excited to go for a walk all day, but after dinner, I'm pooped! I know, you'll say go earlier, but I really can't with my job and then as soon as I'm done with that, I'm "taxi Mom"... hello, nice to meet you all! Next is dinner and then a sometimes fight for "do your homework". By the time I get ME TIME, I'm exhausted!

Papabear (my husband) always says I stop him from going to the gym. Sure, put that ON ME... I don't have enough already, right?!!? I know I'll get some down time soon, maybe, hopefully, and will get going back to the gym my three to five days a week again, but for now, I'm focusing on my eating and be good with that... side note: my sister lost over 50 lbs just by watching what she ate, so I can do this too!

Why do other (little bit larger) ladies look better in clothes then I do? I know we are all different, but what do I not know about dressing right?!!? I do have to say that I have the weirdest "time of the Months" (TOM). The week before I get all bloated & that last the whole week I'm going. After that I get a couple days I call my skinny days and then go back to feeling fat. I ready do hate it! Why can't I get more of those skinny days?!!?

With that said, I have to share my story I shared with one of my SP groups I'm in... sorry AMC friends for repeating here. This is something that happened this weekend and is giving me some drive to keep going, perhaps?!!?

This past weekend we went to my older Cub's (son's) cross country meet. It was a HUGE meet with schools from many other states around us! My point here, there was LOTS of people there! My cub was walking by and... in his words here... "I was walking by and saw this amazing site. Leaning against the fence I saw a woman. I was looking for my Mom, so thought to myself, it looks like my Mom, but I wasn't sure. As I got closer I realized it was my Mom and she just amazed me with how skinny she was." He then gave me a big smile and said... "It's true Mom. You are always pretty and look very nice, but yesterday I saw a pretty skinny lady!"

That just made my day and I have been trying to use it to help me. When I want those not good for me foods, I think of him saying that to me! Sometimes I just need that push...

I know that, that day, was my skinny day. But it doesn't mean I can't do this! It doesn't mean I can't keep trying to make all these days, my skinny days! I let my TOM bring me down all the time since it effects me for 3 weeks out of a month. But I can be stronger and win over it! I'm starting the 5% challenge and I know with that and my help of encouragement words from my cub is a great start here. Now it's time to ask myself... do you want that Apple, yogurt, or banana?!? hee hee.

Hope you all have a great day!