SP Premium
THECRAZYMANGO
30,000-39,999 SparkPoints 35,753
SparkPoints
 

Finding Mr. Right

Saturday, September 19, 2015

Since breaking up with my boyfriend, I have given it alot of thought of want I really want. I learned there are just some things I cannot compromise on and I was doing more compromising with my ex than I realized.

It was never bad but I no longer wanted to try to be someone I just wasn't. He wanted me to have long hair because short hair according him looked like boys. He told me that my tattoos were white trash. He hated my running.

Maybe he started to suffocate me. Because after the break, I got my hair cut in an inverse bob. I felt sassy, sexy. I could breathe again. It helped that one of the guys at work that can be a prick was like I like your haircut (along with 50 other folks). It feel good. One of the other guys flirting with me. It felt good. I feel alive.

Looking back, I realize I was trying to dim my sunshine. I never want to dim my sunshine ever again. I want to find someone that loves me as I love me. I am pretty amazing and I hope one day my guy can love me as much as my family and friends do. I love that I am a sassy, sexy, strong woman. I love my tattoos and pixie hair. I love my sassy attitude. I love my love to run and to do races. It's who I am.

People have been asking what I want into my guy. I've been on the fence if they need to be a runner and I think they do. My ex didn't want to hear about my running and didn't understand that I'd love to travel for races. I want more runcations. I am not sure if a non-runner would understand that. I want my guy do Ragnar and other races with me. There are a couple guys in my life that like to talk running and I am getting used to the idea that I can talk running with them.

So, right now, I don't know if I need a boyfriend. If something happens, it happens. A few suggested that I go on match.com or pof.com. I've tried that and didn't find what I am looking for. I think what I am looking for will be at the gym or a running group actually.

Also, I don't know if I am in a place where I want to date. In a perfect world, I would rather be starting my career (another two years at least) and not in school. It's not like I could even pay for a wedding right now, lol.

Ideally, I would want to be closer to my goal weight of 160. I want to meet a healthy person and I want to be a healthy person. I want to have similar health goals and to strive to be healthy together. Ironically, I need to do that at the gym and well, that's where I think I will find Mr. Right. emoticon

Starting next week, I will work the Y once a week so I should be able to work out more than I did the last two weeks so maybe I can implement more lifting and group fitness classes. I have been trying to decide if I want to continue with the trainer. He took over for a trainer I didn't like. I like this new one and he keeps me on track. If I buckle down, I could lose 12# reasonably, one pound a week. My body doesn't lose weight any faster than that anymore. I guess that is fine as it will stay away than.

I guess I feel like I picked up some bad habits and it's time to get back to who I was and am.
Share This Post With Others
Member Comments About This Blog Post
  • MOBYCARP
    Your Mr. Right is probably a runner. He won't necessarily be someone who runs at a similar pace to you, but he will be someone who understands a passion for running. And yes, you're more likely to find him at a gym or at a running event than at an online dating service. And it's okay if it takes you a long time to find him; in the meantime, be the best, happiest *you* that you can be. If Mr. Right is out there, that's what will attract him.
    1612 days ago
  • 1CRAZYDOG
    Savannah: You are so right on. You should NEVER EVER dim your sunshine and be anything than what you are -- gorgeous, intelligent, sassy, talented, caring . . . the list goes on!

    I just have to tell you that when the time is right, you'll meet the right person. I was too busy building my career and going to school @ your age, too, to devote time to any serious relationship. So hang in there! It will be when it's meant to be!

    HUGS
    1613 days ago
  • NATPLUMMER
    Awesome!! You will find somebody who will appreciate the real you. Sometimes it takes a while, though. Just be your fabulous self!!
    1613 days ago
  • ZENALIA
    Proud of you. :-))
    1613 days ago
  • ROBFIL
    Just focus on yourself, you are worth it!
    1613 days ago
  • no profile photo CD5826541
    Good for you CM! Writing really seems to help clarify thought and just helps as a whole. I really like the happy, focused CM :) you will attract the right one... Just keep hanging out with runners
    1613 days ago
  • Add Your Comment to the Blog Post

    Log in to post a comment


    Disclaimer: Weight loss results will vary from person to person. No individual result should be seen as a typical result of following the SparkPeople program.
 

More Blogs by THECRAZYMANGO