The state of things
Sunday, August 02, 2015
As I begin this blog, I feel a certain sense of déjà vu. I have been very inconsistent in my weight loss journey through the years, and have written a few "I'm back" blogs, but at the same time I feel very different this time.
I am a pre-nursing student, and I had just started courses this summer. At the end of June, my boyfriend got a new job in Maryland, and about a week after that he became my fiancé. Things were changing very quickly, seemingly overnight.
Then one day I sneezed on the way to work, and something popped, and I could hardly walk without shooting pains going down my leg. Then I remembered those little times I had fallen in the last year, slipped on rain water or tripped working in the yard. Things that happen and then are forgotten. After weeks in and out of the chiropractor's office, I finally was able to get the MRI necessary to see a specialist. Through this time, I can hardly sit up and standing for more than a minute or two was excruciating. When I finally made it to the doctor, he efficiently pointed out the ruptured disk in my spine, and I was amazed to see what that seemingly insignificant sneeze had unleashed. Surgery was promptly scheduled, and eagerly awaited.
I am now four days post-op, and I can't believe how much less pain I am in. Recovery will take awhile, but I already feel like a new person and very much aware of how much I have taken health and even my own body for granted. I overfed myself, and spent too many beautiful days on the couch. I ate till I hurt, and I stopped caring about calories, which meant that I had stopped caring about myself.
As I prepare to begin this next chapter of my life, it is a chance for me to change my habits so I can step into the future as a much healthier person. Our bodies are gifts, and it is time for me to start respecting and taking care of mine.