Okay, so crazy things are still happening. I told my son the other day that if it weren't for my bad luck, I don't think I'd have any luck at all. He said, "Well, then wouldn't it be better to have no luck?!" *lol*
Thursday was weigh in. I did not lose that extra 2 pounds, but I did keep off the 6 I had lost that month. Doctor was pleased. She did adjust some of my medications after I had a pretty serious breakdown last week. I'm still struggling. A lot. I don't know that anything but time is going to help. This whole situation brings back a lot of childhood BS and it just has not been fun to deal with. Can't I just find ONE nice guy that really likes me and I really like?! Ugh!
The doctor released me to start walking 20 minutes a day three days a week on Thursday. I decided my very first little jaunt would be a quick walk with my coworker on Friday to the vegan juice bar we just discovered a few blocks away. Less than a block in, I reinjured my foot and actually worried that I had broken something. I left work, went straight to urgent care, they sent me to the ER for x-rays, they sent me to the clinic because the ER was full. I spent 4 hours in the hospital, walking back and forth...on what could have been a broken ankle. No one offered me a wheelchair or crutches. It was maddening. They took 3 x-rays of my foot. None of my leg/ankle, though that part did show a tiny bit on the films they took. But the radiology department was gone for the day and wouldn't be back until Monday. And then the clinic wouldn't be open until Tuesday. So that was the earliest I would know what was going on. Because the NP and doctor at the clinic agreed there was something "odd" on one of the films that "could be a unique fracture". It's Wednesday. I still don't know what happened. It still hurts and is still swollen. I've lost my brace and abandoned the crutches since it seems I can walk as long as I don't move my foot too much in either direction. I've grown accustomed to pain, I guess. They couldn't prescribe anything beyond tylenol because of what I'm already taking for the foot. Awesome, right?!
Saturday I had to take the foreign exchange student to the airport in the city so he could fly out to Hawaii for the week. Then I went to Target and rode one of those crazy electric carts and crashed a couple times so I could buy myself new bedding, which I needed for my heart and soul to cleanse my bedroom - my new sanctuary. (It has helped...but it still hurts being there alone.)
Sunday I had to work. I had a client needing another section of her senior pictures done and it had to be done this weekend because they graduate next Friday and she wanted announcements to send out. Our "mini" session turned into an hour and a half because we had several costume changes and...well, this girl is just a dream to work with and I really got some great stuff of her!
I mean COME ON! Really?! New fave!!
Monday I had to drive Logan up to the city to meet with his girlfriend and her mom as he wanted to go to her house for the day for a big cookout and party. (I had nothing planned other than working, so I didn't see why not.) When I got home I worked on editing pics (like that one above) for the next 8 hours straight, barely moving to breathe, not eating or drinking much, and then got in the car and drove to pick Logan up again at 9:30pm. My eating was erratic that day, but I seriously doubt it was over calories, even though I did have some froyo for breakfast because I just didn't have time for much else. (On the upside, the grad cards got done. I made a minor edit last night and put her order in so she should have them in time.) I also got pulled over by the state police because apparently my registration had expired and I didn't even realize it. (Seriously!? Come on, universe!) Thankfully, we got off with a warning and I went straight home and renewed online! *sigh*
And then yesterday - Work here in the morning included having to bring my boss into town, trying not to fall asleep, a half lunch, rushing to a meeting, rushing home, doing my nails (finally! They were ratchet!) and fixing my hair and makeup before Logan's fancy band banquet. And then back home to finish up and order those grad cards for my senior client.
I'm tired! *lol*
Anyhow, back to planning...
So, current weight as of last Thursday is 452.8
Weight I'd like to lose this month: 8 pounds (444.8)
This would put me almost back on track and leave me with a total of 16 pounds lost of the 46 I need to lose by the end of January 2016. I'll do a quick weigh-in tomorrow morning to see if I've been able to accidentally lose anything this week, but I don't have a clue what all this stress and drama has done to me.
It's time to get really serious. I'm thinking a lot of the emotional binging is pretty well over. Now I have to struggle with my regular nonsense of being busy and the tight budget. I have chicken to cook up tonight with some vegetables. I'm all out of rice, but I was thinking of putting potatoes in as my starch this week since I have some at home. Maybe I'll roast my veggies this week. I only have 2 more week day lunches to plan for this week and then I can get back to the store for more supplies on payday.
Breakfasts have been pretty straight forward. It's better when I don't have to think.
Whole-wheat english muffin (lately I've been having this oatmeal kind, though...they're pretty good and double the amount of protein)
With 2 brown and serve sausage patties (they're banquet brand and tiny and a serving size is two...two fit on my english muffin).
With a slice of low-fat cheese.
Coffee with cream. (I'm excited to shop this weekend at Kroger so I can get more of my almond milk creamer - so much better for me!)
Lunch is whatever I can precook. I do have some salad...maybe I could make some grilled chicken salads for this week (read: next two days). That might be a good option and much quicker than what I had planned. I have watermelon and some grapes left.
Skillet Pasta (tonight)
Stuffed Peppers with cauliflower rice (Thursday)
Shrimp Pasta Alfredo with broccoli (Saturday)
I'll need to shop for next week as well so I plan to sit down and make a list for that.
Again, we're still tight on money. Adjusting to one budget is hard. I do have the highest income of the two of us, but I also took on nearly every single bill we have so I could maintain the house and such.
As for exercising...I'm hoping to get the all clear from the clinic today on that radiology report. Then I'll be able to plan some walking (or, as discussed with my doctor, Walk Away the Pounds dvds). I really want to get back on track.
I do have a session with my counselor tonight. I think I'm past all the initial shock so it's time to see what I need to do to get my head right and move forward in the healthiest way possible.
Final goal for this month -- DRINK MORE WATER!!