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Simply Put;

Thursday, April 30, 2015

I'm tired. So, so tired. I'm tired of not being respected in this house, I'm tired of being taken advantage of. I'm tired of trying to deal with adults who act like children; and not in the good way. I'm tired of being lonely, I'm tired of getting hurt. You could say "you're young, go enjoy life, never mind about a partner for now" BUT I've been shown how people "enjoy life" nowadays and its not what I want at all. I want structure, I want love. I want to be able to explore the world WITH the person I want beside me. I'm tired of going to bed with anxiety, I'm tired of being scared of every shadow and sound. I'm tired of being afraid of the dark. I just want to go to bed NOT thinking about what could be lurking. I know what I want. I know what I need. But I'm tired of being the only one that wants me to be happy. I could turn this blog around and be inspirational: but I'm too tired for even that.
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  • LIMITLESS88
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    1729 days ago
  • SOUTHERNGRITS55
    Angel.. With all the I am tired you have to make the first step and you have to take control when every thing around you is nothing but crazy.. We have a choice everyday and the choice you take will lead to another path and then you go to the left or the right.. so today make the better choices and I know if I can turn my life upside down and go for that finish line anyone can.. I blamed everything on everyone but myself.. so I took charge and said I am going to do this for me... not for anyone but I gave it to God and said please untangle all this mess and then and only then I began to make better choices.. I can write and tell you what I did or you can read all the other information you want.. but you have to do the action.. So today if you read this or tonight when you log on.. I am telling you .. you are too young to have this much stuff in your life.. This is the best time.. I do not know your friends or family but I see you need to make the changes.. and You look like you are a smart cookie.. so do some research and make the changes .. Do not have regrets.. go for the finish line.. I know you can do this.. In His Love and Grace.. Just Me
    1730 days ago
  • BONNIEMCC488
    emoticon I've been where you are so many times, and in some ways and sometimes still am for a few of those. Keep finding the positives in life and focus on those as much as possible. It doesn't make everything sunshine but it does help a lot, trust me.
    1730 days ago
  • MARINGAL
    You are the only one to change you life. No one else can do it for you. So, no more whining, get up and go for it! Life is too good to be "tired" all the time. Good Luck!
    1730 days ago
  • MARKDORENE
    Good luck
    1730 days ago
  • LOOKASHINY
    *hugs* Being young doesn't mean you have to be happy. Life sucks sometimes. That's the unfortunate truth. Hopefully you know that many of us on Spark are cheering for you and keeping you in our thoughts.

    I hope you find a friend that gives you comfort. If you find a significant other, even better since that's what you are looking for. Either way please know you are not alone.

    I'm glad you share your tough days, not just the good ones. That's what makes us human.

    Hang in there. We care.

    *hugs*
    Laura
    1730 days ago
  • BETHOFBAMA
    emoticon It is good to put in writing what you want and don't want. I think you did good in writing it.... even if you felt it was negative. You got it out of your system.
    1730 days ago
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