Down 23, Up 18 = Insanity!
Monday, April 13, 2015
If the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results, then I must truly be a stark raving lunatic! Despite being fully aware of the consequences, I have gorged on all the junk foods that show up on the "eat infrequently and in moderation list". In record time, I have managed to eat my way from being down 23 lbs to gaining back 18 pounds.
What was I thinking? I wasn't. I was avoiding and rationalizing. I was telling myself lies about what I was consuming. I was looking the other way when I should have been laser focused. I was being the food addict I am.
I want off this train and I want off now! I am beyond frustrated with this vicious cycle. Losing and gaining is self-defeating and exhausting. For all the work I've done since October 6th when I started my "get healthy" plan, there's not a lot to feel good about.
So, its back to the drawing board. What it will take to make a permanent change I don't know. But I do know that at least I haven't lost the will to TRY! But, as Yoda so wisely said, “Do. Or do not. There is no try.” So where does that leave me??? Do!