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Don't go back.

Friday, April 10, 2015

I said towards the beginning of this journey, about -25lbs in, "I'm in this for the long run... going back isn't an option... its just not."
Not a day goes by that I'm not thankful for that mindset.
I'm so glad when I came to the point of having ENOUGH of being obese that I didn't reach for some quick fix.
A pill
Some shake
A fad diet
You name it.

Failure in the beginning of such a journey makes it seem pointless to try again.
I'm grateful I knew that dropping a lot of weight fast, is normally a dead end street. I wanted to change for the rest of my life, and so far, I'm right on target.

5.5 years:
Countless 5ks.
Half marathon.
My healthiest pregnancy.
Half marathon while pregnant.
Emergency surgery.
Lost the baby weight.
Two more half marathons
My first marathon (nov. 2014)

For the first time though, I lost my desire to run. Post marathon I went into a running funk. I had had a rough year. I had a brutally hard first marathon and I simply wanted to stay inside. It bugged me a lot. WHY didn't I want to run? HOW do I get my mojo back? My drive? I had no answers. This was Following months where my running mileage had gone over 100, then the month of December happened... about 10 miles for the whole month. Half way through January and ZERO miles. I reached out to my running family... I had several "you'll be back", "I've been there, just run." etc. But I couldn't "just run".
Then a running friend asked me if I had a gym membership... "yes."
"can you go to the gym right now?"
"if I get my toddler ready and myself and drive there... yes."
Then it happened....
"good. I'll talk to you when you get done."
Ugh, now I HAD to go... because that's my personality.
I hated treadmills... I went to the gym but I didn't run. I did the stairs. I did the row machine, and you know what? It was nice. It was nice to be active... doing something different.
I let my running friend know I had finished and to which the reply was, "next time do 1 mile on the treadmill first.... ANYONE can do one mile. Then you can do whatever you want."
Man, this person was getting on my nerves!
But... it was working. Within a couple weeks I no longer hated the treadmill. I got on more, stayed on longer... and even ran a half marathon on it one day. Last month I broke 100 miles of running outside and on the treadmill. I'm over 240 for the year, which not really starting to run until February is pretty good.
AND in just over two weeks I will run my second marathon. I'm back.
Did I fall of the wagon? Not completely.
Did I gain all my weight back? No.
But I could have easily done both. THIS is why accountability is important. This is why friends who love what you love, and get where you're at, are IMPORTANT.
Lose weight the right way...

Eat better, eat less, get active.
Find a cardio you love.
Get an accountability partner.
And find friends who love to do the workouts you do so that you don't go back... back to feeling uncomfortable in your own skin, to being out of breath, no energy to do anything fun with your kids, huffing and puffing up the stairs, clothes not fitting, feeling self conscious, feeling too embarrassed and ashamed to be around people, aches and pains, crying over what you've done to yourself... No! Because, "going back isn't an option. it's just not."

Much love,
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  • _JODI404
    emoticon Em!! Wonderful update!! So happy to see you are thriving!!

    2203 days ago
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