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So what else is new?

Monday, March 02, 2015

Usually when people say that, it's in response to some announcement that they've heard a hundred times before ("It's going to snow tomorrow!" "So what else is new?") but this time I really feel some new stuff coming on.

I'm not losing weight as fast as I hoped (do we ever? - except for FLORIDASUN and her cooking-happy FMD, which I'm trying but so far not following very closely.) I haven't been exercising as much as I should - surprise! Seriously, I'm a walker and a very busy landscaper in nice weather, so it's hard for me to switch to indoor exercise when the world is sub-zero (F), thigh deep in snow and I'm stuck inside. But instead of buying that excuse, I'm actually getting down on the floor with some of the DVDs I've bought over the years. I'm way too far from civilization for a gym membership, so that's out. And if anyone has any tips on how to claim what the four-leggers feel is *their* turf and be able to exercise without cat or dog "help", please share!

When the larder starts to run a little thin, as it does by late winter (I belong to a CSA the rest of the year), instead of falling back on fattening, not very healthy dishes, I'm sticking to low-fat proteins, complex carbs and as much greenery as I can afford. I've discovered that my body is so happy with my brain for doing this that it's actually willing to forgo the usual weight gain and depression.

I'm in a worse financial bind than I've ever been in before, and believe me, I've been in some pips. The new thing is that I'm not panicky. I don't know whether it's because, in the back of my mind, I know there will be a good outcome, whether I've just lost interest in panicking over money, or whether I'm just in some alternate reality where truly bad stuff doesn't happen ( let's hope it's the first option!) Nevertheless, I've spent today going over ideas and sources instead of pacing, whining and drinking. I'm honestly not that concerned. I put on my grown-up hat, made all the necessary phone calls, and climbed back onto my warm couch with one dog and two cats. (The other cats are busy blocking the heat outlets.)

Writing...writing. You know, it's like any other task that you dread - once you start it, you see how much less painful it was than you were expecting. Believe it or not, I honestly do love writing, almost as much as I love glass work and mixed media collage. I took a day to follow a bunch of new Twitter folks and started digging around for free-lance publishers - once again, for the first time, not pacing, whining and drinking but actually taking action in a positive manner.

After several years of on-again off-again major depression resulting in a house that looks like some Hoarder nightmare, I've turned a corner and gotten half the downstairs cleaned up and am working on the rest. Not every day, as I seem to have developed some sort of chest Thing ( I really *am* allergic to cleaning!) but more days than not. Given that it's a 4000 sq ft, 200 year old farmhouse, "tidying up" involves sorting through literally centuries of Things. This is a Big Deal - probably something concerning self-worth that I'll think about later.

And you know what has helped me in all these endeavors more than anything? (No, not drink and drugs, wise guys.) Spark People. I find if I start my day off here, it sets me on the right track. Not that derailment isn't still a possibility, but I feel like you all are fighting the good fight and cheering me on from the sidelines, and I'll be damned if I'm going to let us down again.

You guys are my Tribe.

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    Wow, don't know how I missed this blog but glad I found it today. emoticon

    Sounds like you're doing pretty well there, Scooter, in spite of all the things that could cause you to feel that you're not doing well at all. I relate to several items that you brought up - like finances, diet, exercise and the need to declutter the house. Of course, you are ahead of me on the house cleaning - and bravo to you for however much you have accomplished thus far. I sometimes dream of a crew of people showing up with a big box truck and with their help I empty my house of all truly unnecessary items, while leaving only some furniture, some clothes, some books and some food. I think one of the hardest parts of cleaning out the house and also needing some extra cash, and knowing I could sell a lot of my junk in a yard-sale, is the monumental task of trying to do it in the only free time I have, which is wintertime, yet with no where to set up a staging area until I can move the items to another building to be sold. During the winter time our so-called yard-sale building is filled up with farm equipment - tractors, four-wheeler, lawn mowers, etc. And then, when Spring comes, we really do hit the ground running with outside chores. Some chores must be done and others , like my own passion for landscaping and flower planting and so on, MUST also be done for my own peace of mind of sense of well-being. Anyway, this summer I am going to rid myself of STUFF. I plan to have yard-sales after yard-sales and what does not sell will not back to the house. STUFF - too much STUFF becomes like a prison ... and I am so ready now to be set free. emoticon

    Wishing you all the very best and continued progress in everything you are taking on. emoticon
    2094 days ago
    So glad to hear that you have turned a corner and are moving in a positive direction. I hear that there is an active online community of writers at Goodreads.com. Something to check out?

    I almost fell off my chair laughing at your comment about the cats blocking the heat registers!

    2095 days ago
    I'm so happy to be part of your tribe!
    And because of your influence I finally (!) signed up for a Twitter account and have been on it for quite some time today. I think I like it!
    4000 sq ft? That is something!! I would love to see your place.
    You know, I've been thinking for a while now that I am on a mission to use up what I have, from clay to seed beads and old magazines. It became clear to me that I needed to start divesting myself of crap when I saw an episode of The Big Bang Theory in which Leonard, Raj and Howard clean out a dead professor's office and Howard says something like, "And when you're dead someone will throw out all of your theories and ideas and boxes of notes just like we're doing now."
    Slowly I am going through a process of divesting myself of belongings. I just don't see an upside to owning or keeping a lot of stuff.
    2100 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/4/2015 10:29:37 PM
    We are in a similar place as far as the exercise goes. I prefer to do my exercise outside but not when the snow is up to my neck. Right now I have 1000 birds staring in my window. Even they don't want to be outside. I've got tons of DVDs and should do them.

    I'm eating a little better. I still have a long way to go though.

    You are doing great on the home front. I'm ready to work on that too but my hubby is dragging his feet. He gets off to a good start but then stalls.
    2100 days ago
    Yes we certainly ARE a tribe of sorts aren't we one for all and all for one! I got a notification you book has shipped so that will make you happy! I hope it inspires you to tell your story...its s brave one..one that many would enjoy!! Hugs!!
    2101 days ago
    What a great blog! You sound great and, yes, it seems many things are new for you. I definitely trust that all will turn out well for you. You are a survivor but more than that you are a thriver!! You have worked your way through so much stuff! Of course, we are cheering you on......that's what tribes do!!! emoticon
    2102 days ago
    Part 2 I'm glad to reconnect with you again. I'm just pulling out from barely drowning in the sea of life. We'll do this together. I like the Mini-Book. Far too many of us are in this position, and SparkGuy is motivating us anew. Take care.
    2102 days ago
    Yes, we are your tribe. I agree with SparkPeople as our LightBearer. Had to laugh with your Velcro pets. I have two (large) dogs and two cats. As soon as I got my will power to do yoga with an online video, Gracie kept biting my feet and legs LOL.
    2102 days ago
    So glad to hear you're doing well...it isn't always the easiest thing to keep putting one foot in front of the other. I'm so happy for you. And I love your writing...I wish you luck in putting your talent to work!


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    2102 days ago
    You're such an inspiration to me. I can't believe how you manage to survive your winter. I'm hanging my my fingernails to survive in our mild climate. It's not the cold, it's that there is so much dark. Next week's return to Daylight Savings Time will help.

    Pets and exercise videos are simply an adventure. Just go with it and you'll burn some calories and raise your heart rate.

    Be well. I love the thought of belonging to your tribe.
    2102 days ago
    This blog spoke to me on several levels. I'll start with the last: tribe. I've been fascinated by this for ages, have written a few short stories about it, one that was particularly crushing to write. No, nothing published. Which brings me to the part about writing. That really speaks to me, too. It can be so painful, but never so much as when I'm just thinking about it vs. doing it. I've been thinking about starting it up again, but ...well, who knows who that procrastinator is who lives in my noggin with me?! She's a pest. And the 200 year old farm house with centuries of stuff to sort through...how cool is that?! I mean daunting, obviously, but the finds, the stories your brain can create from the bygone leavings of others. Wow. So cool. And last, the hoarder cleanout - you should give yourself SERIOUS credit for getting so much of that done. Huge accomplishment! And making calls that are unpleasant, more kudos to you. You're actually doing great, and I'm glad you can see it!

    Oh,and trying to keep little ones from following (be they furry or human), I find that most others get sick of walking up and down stairs, even just the bottom step, and it torches a lot of calories. Music very necessary, of course. Now why don't I do that more often?!
    2102 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/2/2015 9:21:23 PM
    I've given up on trying to dissuade the pups from helping me do pilates. I have to do this stuff with them on my chest, that's all. And now I'm doing exercises FOR them, because they like it so much. They make little happy noises into my face.
    2102 days ago
    You have a wonderful way with words. Enjoy reading your blog.
    BTW, I too start my day with SparkPeople.
    2102 days ago
    You're sitting on a gold mine, in so many ways, so I know that you will always have a good outcome. No kidding. I will be one of those who buy an acre from you and live off the land. How's that? Honestly, keeping everything clear is something that has always helped me with my inner clarity. Sounds like you will be landscaping when nicer weather hits.
    2102 days ago
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    2102 days ago
    Your rooms look amazing. The hard work shows and I know your outcome will be positive.
    2102 days ago
    I Read your blog and at the end the foolish little Chihuahua jumped on my arm and I lost my comment. I will come back later. Spark keeps me going honestly I am trying for 2000 day streak-wish me luck. Pat in Maine
    2102 days ago
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