Spiraling Out of Control
Wednesday, January 21, 2015
When the going gets tough, I head straight for carbs! Cheese corn and cheese puffs, chips and crackers of every sort, and sugary sweets galore....I down them all! And over the last month, it has been kind of tough going for a number of reasons. So I indulged, and over-indulged and blah..blah...blah....before I knew it, I was spending more time and energy buying and eating junk I shouldn't be eating than following the healthy eating plan I should have been following.
Needless to say I was in a downhill spiral and an upward weight gain.
I am back in control now, but it feels precarious. Downward spirals are a slippery slope and it is exhausting to binge eat and then try to recover by gaining the ground I lost. I am feeling worn out, but determined to break this self-destructive cycle!
My goal is to eat like a normal person; eat when I'm hungry and stop when I am close to full. It sounds so super simple, but the behaviors that get me there are sometimes fleeting. It's time to work at it, moment by moment, which is about all I can wrap my tired mind around right now.
I know I can do this. I have run marathons and skied terrifyingly vertical slopes. If I can do that, I CAN do anything!