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Spiraling Out of Control

Wednesday, January 21, 2015

When the going gets tough, I head straight for carbs! Cheese corn and cheese puffs, chips and crackers of every sort, and sugary sweets galore....I down them all! And over the last month, it has been kind of tough going for a number of reasons. So I indulged, and over-indulged and blah..blah...blah....before I knew it, I was spending more time and energy buying and eating junk I shouldn't be eating than following the healthy eating plan I should have been following.

Needless to say I was in a downhill spiral and an upward weight gain.

I am back in control now, but it feels precarious. Downward spirals are a slippery slope and it is exhausting to binge eat and then try to recover by gaining the ground I lost. I am feeling worn out, but determined to break this self-destructive cycle!

My goal is to eat like a normal person; eat when I'm hungry and stop when I am close to full. It sounds so super simple, but the behaviors that get me there are sometimes fleeting. It's time to work at it, moment by moment, which is about all I can wrap my tired mind around right now.

I know I can do this. I have run marathons and skied terrifyingly vertical slopes. If I can do that, I CAN do anything!

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  • MEOWMAMA3
    Hang in there. We've all been and will no doubt be once again in your shoes. Take it one snack attack at a time. There are many nights on the way home from work that I actually fantasize about KFC and McDonald's fries. I haven't hit a drive through since the week before Christmas (and I'm way too guilty and lazy to actually go into the restaurant...) When I hit the nearby highway exit on the way home I picture myself fitting into my new vest and swing to the right and just keep going emoticon emoticon . I get in the house and make a quick Ninja drink with some frozen blueberries, celery, spinach and half an apple. Delicious, quick and fills the void.
    1862 days ago
  • ERIN_POSCH
    you CAN do this... i'm sure of it.

    I have had a bit of an eye opening myself this week. i was doing well as far as the scale was concerned but the truth came out in my labs this week. my numbers for some of the results were shocking. how can i lose weight or feel healthy with those kind of numbers. truth is. when i look over the choices of the last few months -- between all the overtime and the holidays -- there were lots of poor choices made.

    i'm sure the doc is gonna give me a lecture when i see her tomorrow for my annuals. but i'm confident it is something that is within my control. I just need to understand that i may be able to hide it from the scale, but the body knows.

    I'm willing to partner up with you to do this. lets agree to make every choice the healthier choice, be willing to admit when we don't, and quickly move on so the next choice can be a healthy choice. are you with me?
    1862 days ago
  • EABL81
    Boy, can I relate! You're describing my vacation last summer and my holidays this winter. But you can do this - you're already turning it around. Remind yourself why you're doing this, and stay strong!

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    1862 days ago
  • WESTERNSAGE
    It's good that you have been able to regain some traction on your eating. But trying to do it all with willpower alone will ultimately bring you full circle to the eating problems again. Working on those problems, perhaps with the help of a friend or therapist, will help with the emotional eating. Good luck!
    1863 days ago
  • LIVINGLOVINLIFE
    JUST SAY NO! Sounds so simple but boy is it ever tough. emoticon emoticon
    1863 days ago
  • LIMOM2TWINS
    emoticon sometimes it just one thing to make it all click into place - you will find what make it clicks for you and you will SOAR! - already ran marathons WOW! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1863 days ago
  • DAWNWATERWOMAN
    You can do this my friend. Chin up, fork down. You've got this. The Lovely Limes are cheering for you.
    1863 days ago
  • FERRETLOVER1
    Binges are definitely difficult to get past - but it sounds to me like your head is in the right place now. Hang in there - emoticon
    1863 days ago
  • VALYNN26
    I have been going through the same thing. Hang in there. One day at a time. We'll get there. emoticon
    1863 days ago
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