My Journey: Take Two

Once upon a time(way back in 2010), I found Sparkpeople. Worked my butt off and lost 135 lbs. I was happy. Confident. Healthy. The end.

Or I so I thought.

Whomever said, "All good things must come to an end." seems to of had some inside knowledge into my life. It turns out, maintenance is super hard. Harder even than the journey to get to maintenance. It's super easy (for me,anyway) to slide back into bad habits. Turns out life is hard too and I am quite willing to use that as an excuse to indulge in said bad habits.

So here it is;

Three years in a nutshell(that's how long it has been since I have blogged)....

1. Broke a leg and two surgeries later, have limited ability to bend it. Also known as Excuse #1 not to go to gym.

2. Quit smoking for the millionth time and it stuck....YaY Me! Unfortunately, most of it stuck to my a$$. Code for: Eat all you want. We will work it off later.

3. Dr took my lymph nodes in my groin because he thought it was a reoccurance of Cancer and it caused Lymphodema. Excuse #2 for me not to go to the gym.

4. The single most painful event in my life occurred last March(someday, I may talk about it here but not yet). I struggle every day with whether I should get a divorce or not. My self-esteem is shot and I have gained 40 lbs. Excuse #3 to not go to gym. Also known as " let's eat all the chips we can and hope it makes us feel better "

As it turns out, chocolate really doesn't really mend a broken heart and "I'll worry about it later" doesn't really work for me. A friend told me lately that I have lost my spark. I really resent that I allowed someone else to take that from me and secondly, I took it as a sign that I need to be here on Sparkpeople. What better place to rediscover my spark, right?

So here i am. Ready to restart my journey.

Tomorrow I will:

1. Drink 8 glasses of water
2. Walk 20000 steps
3 Stay within my calories
4. Be kind to myself

That's all I can do right now but it's enough. 😀