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A New Ending

Sunday, November 30, 2014

I am not sure if everyone can understand this.

I have been a success story.
I have lost 100 pounds.
Maintained for two years.

And, sometimes I know don't if I want it back. Than, sometimes I do want it all back. This is a mental struggle I have fought in the last couple months.

I realize I don't want to feel guilty about eating cake. I don't want the saggy skin on my tummy. I do want my solid legs from hours of running. I want to run half marathons. It's like fighting between who I was and who I become. Now it is like I am stuck in between. I am neither but have components of both in me.

My motivation is up and down and all over the place with wanting to get back to who I want. But, than again, I don't have to go back to who I want. I can do better. I think this means changing the end of my journey for the better and this is just one more chapter to my story.

I think this means overcoming the environment rather avoid environments. It also means having a positive body image. Also, I want to be strong and not have a weak hips or core.

Just some thoughts...
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  • EJOY-EVELYN
    You will succeed at whatever you put your mind and energy to. You can do this.
    2128 days ago
  • NATPLUMMER
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  • PATRICIAANN46
    Hi Savannah.........
    I agree with CRAZYDOG. I would make lists under the heading Pros and Cons and choose the ones that are most important to you and that YOU can live with.
    You know what works..........now you have to modify it to YOUR needs.
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    2129 days ago
  • SNOWFILLY
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  • PATTYMCGRAW
    You've learned a lot about yourself and you know more of what you want and don't want. I say that you are a success story.
    2130 days ago
  • PATRICIA-CR
    For me it's a matter about being healthy or not. I cannot go back to being unhealthy, but I include a cupcake or any decadent dessert I'm drooling about within my calorie intake. In other words, I plan for eating them.

    I refuse to look back at all the bad habits I had and the results of my blood tests, blood pressure, etc. It's too much what I value of my new me to even think about going back after all the effort and hard work I put to be here. BUT that doesn't mean every thing is forbidden! Just plan it!

    Best wishes.
    2130 days ago
  • 1CRAZYDOG
    Ask yourself what elements of your PREVIOUS (before weight loss) life do you want to retain? Then think about the pros and cons. Is it worth it? I had to do this with myself. Wrote it down in black and white. Turned out that not much of my past behaviors were worth hanging onto.

    You have come a long way . . . stuck it out thru school when it was hard, graduated, stuck it out in a job you didn't like, moved on now to one you do like. Those are all great accomplishments!

    So, give yourself some time to think about things, be honest with yourself. You definitely CAN re-write the ending to this book called life!

    HUGS
    2130 days ago
  • MCFITZ2
    I think most of us have a similar battle going on. Self sabotage is awful. Hang in there. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2130 days ago
  • GIRLINMOTION
    You can do it. You already have proven it!
    2130 days ago
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    2130 days ago
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