A New Ending
Sunday, November 30, 2014
I am not sure if everyone can understand this.
I have been a success story.
I have lost 100 pounds.
Maintained for two years.
And, sometimes I know don't if I want it back. Than, sometimes I do want it all back. This is a mental struggle I have fought in the last couple months.
I realize I don't want to feel guilty about eating cake. I don't want the saggy skin on my tummy. I do want my solid legs from hours of running. I want to run half marathons. It's like fighting between who I was and who I become. Now it is like I am stuck in between. I am neither but have components of both in me.
My motivation is up and down and all over the place with wanting to get back to who I want. But, than again, I don't have to go back to who I want. I can do better. I think this means changing the end of my journey for the better and this is just one more chapter to my story.
I think this means overcoming the environment rather avoid environments. It also means having a positive body image. Also, I want to be strong and not have a weak hips or core.
Just some thoughts...