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I feel fantastic!

Sunday, September 21, 2014

I am astonished by myself. I never knew I had this drive in me. I have been working out more this week than I think I ever have, even with the last time I did this. Yesterday Kris and I took a 40 minute hike, It was hard. Steep up hill roots and dirt and rocky too. Had to walk about half a mile on a beach.... it was tired, hard, but I didnt quit. I walked 12.2 miles as well last week on top of it. I cant wait to feel better than I do now. I am 4 pounds away from 30 lost and this is just the start. I have a long way to go, But I have come so far already.

I am glad it is going like this, yesterday my pants kept almost falling down. I need a belt. A BELT. something I never really have used.

I cannot even imagine what it will be like when I have to buy smaller sized cloths... I will be at a loss. I want to be healthy. I want to make right choices. I dont want to be sick all the time.

This is not easy...some people think its is, they are wrong. I have had to endure watching Kris eat all the nasty things I love, that I cant eat that often anymore.... or deal with "oh you dont need to measure/track/report that" But I am pulling through and I will continue to do so. This is amazing.
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  • OOLALA53
    Thought I'd learn a bit more about you because I wanted to welcome you to the Living Binge Free team, where we concentrate less on weight loss, though it may happen, and more on learning how to feed ourselves reasonably (including both for nutrition AND pleasure) and consistently for the years to come while living in the food-rich culture. I don't want to rain on your parade, but I would say that your habits of eating better quality food in reasonable amounts and moving more consistently are even better reasons to celebrate than the weight loss itself. Don't get me wrong. I am aware that a lower weight is a fun outcome, but not at the expense of our long term ability to live WITH food. People can use all kinds of crazy ways to lose weight, ways that actually perpetuate the fear of food and the feeling of constantly battling. If we want to become binge free, a lot of those ways can and do backfire. We have to learn to let go of them the same way we have to let go of the habit of bingeing.

    I affirm that the day will come when you can be around Kris or anyone eating anything and it will be no big deal. You will have learned how much or little processed food you need to be happy, and you will have given it to yourself, so there will be no reason to be envious. You will have created a pattern of eating delicious, vitality-inducing meals that you get great pleasure from anticipating, eating, and experiencing the after-effects of. You won't feel you are on a diet or that you have to watch what you eat. You are simply eating, and eating well is just one area of focus in your life, and not necessarily the most important one. You will have put food in its place. It is not a journey that is over in a few weeks or months no matter how comfortable we may think we are then, but it is worth all the learning experiences to come. And it doesn't have to be torture! It can actually be.... fun! emoticon
    2250 days ago
  • COOP9002
    Awesome job on the weight loss and the healthy lifestyle that you are obviously developing.
    2264 days ago
  • HELPFULH
    @HOLIERTHANTHOU
    Kris is my Boyfriend and though I made it seem that it was him, it wasn't. He is being as supportive as he can be. (He surprised me by taking me to the park we Hiked at. It was all his idea :) ) He works at a junk yard and lugs around 700 pound transmissions all day so he needs more food than I do.
    The latter part of that means my mom, who isn't trying to be discouraging, just doesn't fully understand how I need to manage this. I was just saying that it makes it harder for ME. Its a me thing, really. I just am surprised I can overcome it!
    2265 days ago
  • HOLIERTHANTHOU
    Wow, congrats on the almost 30 pounds lost and on the increase in your fitness! I hope you are already seeing some improvements to you health. And you are absolutely right. This entire process is very difficult. Not just the fitness and tracking part, but the mental / thinking aspect that keeps us going. It's tough for sure.

    I have no idea who Kris is, but next time Kris interrogates you about your food choices, just toss Kris right out the window!

    :)


    2265 days ago
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    keep it up
    2265 days ago
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