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Monday, September 01, 2014

It has taken all of the day to get going on this blog.. I told my self this morning I needed to write it out about how August went and how I would like September to turn out.. and I just do not know why it has taken me all day to do so.. I guess I just did not want to face the truth and the truth is August was just like the other 7 months of 2014.. I did the same thing in the beginning of each month really thought how I wanted to have that month turn out.. and what I was going to do to have it turn out that way. lets rewind to January 2014 where it all started.. where I was kind of in the same place where I am now.. meaning the scale not moving, feeling a little overwhelmed with that fact, asking my self what did you do to change? and vow that I would do better, do this do that eat this don't eat that.. drink water.. work out bike more walk more talk more blog more.. each month I would vow that.. it's not all lost I did work at all that.. I did work out a lot I did ride my bike, I did walk more.. I cut out eating stupid stuff meaning extra helpings. or such.. and yet I still got the same results. NO weight loss.. each month I had a plan lose 7lbs. heck I wanted to have 30 lbs off by this date. I said that back in January.. not one.. gone up 2 down 1 up down 2 played with that all Spring and Summer.. I know I am only to blame.. I know what I ate my food plan was not squeaky clean I tried to eat clean which I would do for one or two weeks but carbs come back in and they are my killer.

I do not want repeat the past 9 months.. we only have 4 more months left of 2014 I know I might not lose the 30 but I need to budge some of it... I want to lose 30 to 50 but what I mostly want is to stick to the food plan that I use to follow, I know I can do it.. working out is second nature for me.. I have no problem doing it but I will admit when I am feeling defeated food wise.. my fitness schedule slacks.. and I have been slacking this whole weekend.. I did not do anything not even my knee strengthen exercise's which I am noticing that my knee is popping more and hurting.. (I have a displaced knee cap) and the physical therapist told me I have to do those quad exercise 3x to 4x weekly or I will have problems..

So this has me thinking.. I need to do this or my whole body is going to suffer I will only be back to where I use to be.. 330lbs. and I do not want that.. I cant go back.. I may not be where I want to be today but I am not where I use to be and I don't want to go back to where I was.. I need to keep moving forward I need to clean up my act and I am doing that starting now.. this Month has to be and will be different it is up to me.. no more slacking..

Thank you or listing to me.. I know I am not judged here..I know I can come here and pour my heart out not make any sense and ramble on.. it helps me and I am going to start doing what I need to do to get back on track.

Starting with:
Eating clean,
getting 8 hours of sleep
drinking my 80oz of water a day
20 minutes of spinning on my spinning bike.. in addition to work out 4 to 5x a week

I got more I should work on but I think if I was to throw it all out there it would be too overwhelming ...

so little by little I will do this.

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  • DTHOR6
    I have no doubt that you can do it. Your mind is in the right place. You are so correct that noone here will judge you, we have all been there done that.

    1974 days ago
    You definitely are not judged because ALL of us have BTDT. I for sure know **I** have.

    You have a fine plan. Take the time daily to look @ it and resolve to take it a day-at-a-time. Being overwhelmed (and again, BTDT) sabotages our efforts.

    HUGS and you CAN do this!
    1974 days ago
    anita this blog could of been written by me . it is exactly what I do each month, week, and day. and now im trying to start and keep to some goals for set too.
    I hope it all goes as planed for you.

    1974 days ago
  • NHES220
    You can do this! Those starting points are great and will get you going. It is not too much too soon, they are manageable. Getting back on track is key. I know you don't want to go back to where you were, none of us do, too scary to think about when you've worked so hard to lose it. Hang in there! You can do this and your knees and the rest of your body will thank you!
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    1974 days ago
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