Monday, September 01, 2014
It has taken all of the day to get going on this blog.. I told my self this morning I needed to write it out about how August went and how I would like September to turn out.. and I just do not know why it has taken me all day to do so.. I guess I just did not want to face the truth and the truth is August was just like the other 7 months of 2014.. I did the same thing in the beginning of each month really thought how I wanted to have that month turn out.. and what I was going to do to have it turn out that way. lets rewind to January 2014 where it all started.. where I was kind of in the same place where I am now.. meaning the scale not moving, feeling a little overwhelmed with that fact, asking my self what did you do to change? and vow that I would do better, do this do that eat this don't eat that.. drink water.. work out bike more walk more talk more blog more.. each month I would vow that.. it's not all lost I did work at all that.. I did work out a lot I did ride my bike, I did walk more.. I cut out eating stupid stuff meaning extra helpings. or such.. and yet I still got the same results. NO weight loss.. each month I had a plan lose 7lbs. heck I wanted to have 30 lbs off by this date. I said that back in January.. not one.. gone up 2 down 1 up down 2 played with that all Spring and Summer.. I know I am only to blame.. I know what I ate my food plan was not squeaky clean I tried to eat clean which I would do for one or two weeks but carbs come back in and they are my killer.
I do not want repeat the past 9 months.. we only have 4 more months left of 2014 I know I might not lose the 30 but I need to budge some of it... I want to lose 30 to 50 but what I mostly want is to stick to the food plan that I use to follow, I know I can do it.. working out is second nature for me.. I have no problem doing it but I will admit when I am feeling defeated food wise.. my fitness schedule slacks.. and I have been slacking this whole weekend.. I did not do anything not even my knee strengthen exercise's which I am noticing that my knee is popping more and hurting.. (I have a displaced knee cap) and the physical therapist told me I have to do those quad exercise 3x to 4x weekly or I will have problems..
So this has me thinking.. I need to do this or my whole body is going to suffer I will only be back to where I use to be.. 330lbs. and I do not want that.. I cant go back.. I may not be where I want to be today but I am not where I use to be and I don't want to go back to where I was.. I need to keep moving forward I need to clean up my act and I am doing that starting now.. this Month has to be and will be different it is up to me.. no more slacking..
Thank you or listing to me.. I know I am not judged here..I know I can come here and pour my heart out not make any sense and ramble on.. it helps me and I am going to start doing what I need to do to get back on track.
getting 8 hours of sleep
drinking my 80oz of water a day
20 minutes of spinning on my spinning bike.. in addition to work out 4 to 5x a week
I got more I should work on but I think if I was to throw it all out there it would be too overwhelming ...
so little by little I will do this.