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What. A. Week.

Friday, July 11, 2014

What. A. Week.

I have been all over the place this week. Physically, emotionally, everything that ends in “ally”

We’ll start with the “professionally” bit – this week was the final announcement of the big change at my work. We’re officially sold and no longer work for our old company. I had a big part to play in this and worked A LOT of hours earlier this week. Now starts the fun of transitioning to the new company. I’m trying to keep my blinders on and just focus on my work because I’ve found thinking about this too much sends me down a bad path mentally. There are A WHOLE LOT of unknowns right now and they are all pretty much out of my control so I just have to keep trucking.

All of that happened while the a/c went up in our new house. Luckily we had negotiated a home warranty as part of the purchase so it was covered, but we spent 2 nights sleeping in the basement because it was 90 degrees in the house. Let’s just say I have not slept well all week. So of course I ended up with a migraine. Physically, I have been struggling. I went to PT this week and begged for help.

Also physically/emotionally, its about time for my quarterly adventures with TOM. I only go through this every few months so I almost forget in between how awful this can be. Last week I insanely started struggling with food. Cravings, urges to binge, just intense food feelings out of nowhere. Then I realized what time it was…. Oh. I’m run down, out of sorts, just no good physically and emotionally. I know I moved to this quarterly plan because of this. It has way too much of an effect on me. I hate feeling like this and I know I’m gaining weight and being unhealthy and that bothers me too.

Quite frankly, I’m exhausted today. Between the long hours, my body rebelling, lots of stress, etc. It is now July 11 and I have not used a single vacation day. I tried to put in for some vacation later this month and found out I’m already going to have to work one of those days. I’m almost too tired to care right now.

I’ve got a lot on my mind this week and I haven’t been very devoted to my eating or exercise. I know this happens and I’m trying not to beat myself up for it. I know I should be thankful that I still have a job and got to play such a big role in everything this week (which is a very good story for me to have in my back pocket) but sometimes it feels like I don’t have enough time for myself and my wellbeing (and THAT bothers me!)

Anyways, sorry for the dramatic post. I’ll live. And maybe be avoiding the scale for a few weeks until I undo all of this damage lol. Hope you all have had a great week too!
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    I feel for you sweetie. I am the same way, anything really hectic the eating goes by the way side, I need to knoc- knock myself " hello???" Get back on track, but I have learned beating myself up over it gets me nowhere. Instead I just get back on track.

    I know you are made of the right stuff you will get the job done! emoticon
    2084 days ago
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    I feel you on the big changes at work 210%. My operations manager & half the staff just left so now its into the unknown for me & I'm just trying to keep the ship afloat. With that said it could become beneficial for me as they can see i can handle it & give me a huge raise but its just alot if up in the air so I gotcha on that one.
    I also got you on the random crapshoot that is TOM..sometimes it comes completely un expected, no warning at all then other times its crazy town & you don't know what the heck hit ya. I want to get to the bottom of it as well...like hello hormones, get a grip!

    Just know you're not alone in more ways than one.
    2087 days ago
  • SLEE103
    emoticon Avoiding the scale may be good, I am right now as well, sometimes it just adds to stress. You know how you feel and rely on that.
    2091 days ago
    Girl, it seems to always be a dozen things with you. I don't mean that how it sounded. I'm just saying the universe has a way of piling it on. I sincerely hope it starts sorting it out for your wellbeing! You've got some positives in there (playing the big role professionally, the a/c being under warranty, realizing that you cannot control everything and not beatig yourself up) so don't let those escape you. Hope the weekend brings some relaxation!
    2094 days ago
    Your TOM is actually TOQ? Cool! I just got mine yesterday and I am out of f***s to give today. I just want to lay about and eat brownies. I probably will do that later tonight seeing as how I bought brownie mix at the supermarket...

    At least you're keeping cool in the AC!
    2094 days ago
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