What. A. Week.
Friday, July 11, 2014
What. A. Week.
I have been all over the place this week. Physically, emotionally, everything that ends in “ally”
We’ll start with the “professionally” bit – this week was the final announcement of the big change at my work. We’re officially sold and no longer work for our old company. I had a big part to play in this and worked A LOT of hours earlier this week. Now starts the fun of transitioning to the new company. I’m trying to keep my blinders on and just focus on my work because I’ve found thinking about this too much sends me down a bad path mentally. There are A WHOLE LOT of unknowns right now and they are all pretty much out of my control so I just have to keep trucking.
All of that happened while the a/c went up in our new house. Luckily we had negotiated a home warranty as part of the purchase so it was covered, but we spent 2 nights sleeping in the basement because it was 90 degrees in the house. Let’s just say I have not slept well all week. So of course I ended up with a migraine. Physically, I have been struggling. I went to PT this week and begged for help.
Also physically/emotionally, its about time for my quarterly adventures with TOM. I only go through this every few months so I almost forget in between how awful this can be. Last week I insanely started struggling with food. Cravings, urges to binge, just intense food feelings out of nowhere. Then I realized what time it was…. Oh. I’m run down, out of sorts, just no good physically and emotionally. I know I moved to this quarterly plan because of this. It has way too much of an effect on me. I hate feeling like this and I know I’m gaining weight and being unhealthy and that bothers me too.
Quite frankly, I’m exhausted today. Between the long hours, my body rebelling, lots of stress, etc. It is now July 11 and I have not used a single vacation day. I tried to put in for some vacation later this month and found out I’m already going to have to work one of those days. I’m almost too tired to care right now.
I’ve got a lot on my mind this week and I haven’t been very devoted to my eating or exercise. I know this happens and I’m trying not to beat myself up for it. I know I should be thankful that I still have a job and got to play such a big role in everything this week (which is a very good story for me to have in my back pocket) but sometimes it feels like I don’t have enough time for myself and my wellbeing (and THAT bothers me!)
Anyways, sorry for the dramatic post. I’ll live. And maybe be avoiding the scale for a few weeks until I undo all of this damage lol. Hope you all have had a great week too!