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Faith & Believing

Sunday, June 22, 2014

Some days I have faith that since I had lost so much weight before that I can do it again. Some days I believe that I can do this again. Recently, I have manged to care for myself and exercise and eat well for 4 days out of these past 8 days, but then something happens inside me and I sabotage myself. I really do want to feel better again, but then after a few days of "success" I do everything to sabotage that achievement.

I know I am not perfect and a work in progress, but I am not sure I am ever going to get back to living a healthy lifestyle for any length in time. I have lost my way and lost my belief and faith in myself. I just keep seeking comfort in food. I know it isn't there and I hate the consequences, but I can't seem to care in the moment. Now I feel like I am facing an uphill battle that I am never going to beat and I am growing weary of trying.

I am so depressed again and this is contributing to my not caring about the consequences of using food. I feel like I can't get out of my own way and am on this merry go round that I can't get off. I also feel that I have let people down and that I am a disappointment.
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  • KOBER9999
    I know you'll find a plan that will work you for - a plan that will get you to the healthiest you. Like Nancy said - Some days will be good, maybe even awesome. And some days won't be as good. ONE DAY AT A TIME! That seems to work best. You Can Do It!
    I'm sending you lots of ((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))
    2056 days ago
  • MACMOM57
    Take it a day at a time some will be awesome some won't. I know you can do it. Sending you hugs and blessings.
    2056 days ago
  • MINDFULME2017
    I enjoyed our talk emoticon
    2063 days ago
  • FLUTTER-BY)L(
    We are in this together. I am struggling to stay on track too. You are stringing days of healthy actions together. Don't worry about how the weight is going. Don't worry about others judging you. Just do what makes you feel healthier and happier. The rest will take care of its self.

    Love you friend. You are strong.
    2065 days ago
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