After 5 years and a bunch of pounds later, here I am
Wednesday, May 21, 2014
I think it was 5 years ago that I joined Sparkpeople, although I can't be sure. Time is flying! I lost a total of 97 pounds, became an athlete, ran a 10k, joined roller derby, and felt great. Then I had a baby. And another. And here I am, about five years after my original start date, needing to lose about 45 pounds of baby weight and another 30 or so of extra weight that I put on before the babies.
I know I should feel proud to be back here, but I admit it, I feel sheepish. I miss my muscles, my confidence, and my energy. I'm a Sparkpeople motivator and I don't feel motivating. I have bunches of sparkepeople friends on here whom I haven't contacted in years. In fact, I created another account, thinking I should just sneak in anonymously, but what the heck, all of my data is already here. Besides, I bet I'm not the first to fall off and then get back on the wagon.
As discouraged as I'm feeling, I don't regret my weight gain. I have two beautiful, healthy babies to show for it, and I knowingly indulged both before and after my pregnancies. My husband bought me a road bike, which I've been riding every day that doesn't include rain. I'm aiming for an additional 30+ minute stroller walk with my babies every day, but I'm learning that I can only plan so much before life slaps me with a healthy reminder to be flexible. I'm practicing moderation and portion control (well, for about three days now). I'm not sure I'm ready to commit to tracking my calories because I simply don't have the time. Unless my son is asleep, I can't get on the computer without him climbing all over me. Plus, I'd rather spend my "extra" time (does anyone have extra time?) on fitness and family.
So I'm here. Sheepish, but here.
Oh, and P.S.
My last username was Roller-Girl. Before that I was ShrinkingSimone. I felt like I needed a new one since I'm kind of starting out again.