Thursday, May 15, 2014
Day 3 of no candy... Frankly I miss it... And I'm very grumpy... And I'm craving candy...
Normally I only blog if I feel like what I'm saying isn't too embarrassing. My current feeling is that honesty is probably better than silence and acknowledging my struggle is better than trying to pretend it doesn't exist.
There is a little store 1 mile up the road that has an entire table of some of the best candies ever, from milk duds to pop rocks, bit of honey to bubble gum...
I work from home and really need to get back on my treadmill and start writing another section of the report that is due next Friday, but instead I just feel grumpy, frumpy and dumpy.
So instead I'm blogging, putting it out there, that today this whole lose weight, get healthy and stop the candy binges is incredibly uncomfortable and just doesn't feel good.
BUT - I am holding firm, I am reviewing my goals, I am remembering that the cravings fade after awhile, I am envisioning buying some new clothes when I reach my weight goal, I am determining to be strong and to fight the urges.
In the past, the sugar cravings have led me to drinking maple syrup, or eating those chunks of brown sugar that form when air gets into the brown sugar. I've eaten bags of candy chips or marshmallows, and yes, sometimes just straight sugar from the sugar bowl.
I will not do that, even though the result is that right now I am grumpy. Because the grumpy will pass and I'll be stronger.
I will also give myself permission to be grumpy, it is not easy to get past a sugar addiction, and it is ok that it is hard and unpleasant.
Perhaps tomorrow or even this afternoon I will be a little less grumpy.