I did it!
Friday, April 04, 2014
Tonight was a big step for me. I took a bath. Before you laugh, this has been a big fear for me. Not too long ago, baths were taboo. Matter of fact, it has been SEVERAL years since I have stepped into a bath tub. How I longed to light the scented candles, pour the bath beads into steamy water, relax back with a good book and enjoy the moment. Reality was...the bath would barely be full, maybe a little past my ankle, and I would get in it, and the water would raise all the way up to my breasts. The bath beads would make the tub slick, and being that I was so big, I would struggle and wriggle around to get OUT of the tub. I would take a book in, but being that the water was so little in the tub, it would get cold quickly, and I was so BIG in a small tub (the tub was ALWAYS too small), I was always uncomfortable. The book reading would last maybe one page, and then the process of getting me out of the tub would begin. It was a hassle. I knew that this was not a luxury I was meant to have. I didn't care. Showers were fine. And quicker. And, less embarrassing.
Until tonight. Tonight I took a leap of faith. It is raining and dreary and cold out and I was thinking it would be nice to soak in a hot tub. I literally had to go to the store to buy bath beads. The last box I had got thrown away with the beads being one big chunk in the box, and that was 5 years ago when I moved into this house. Tentatively, I filled the tub to the normal spot, about right at my ankle, and stepped into the tub. The tub didn't seem so small anymore. It seemed just right! And, when I got into the water, it barely raised. I let it keep on streaming in! Lots of warm, comfy water surrounding me, with scented candles all around, and scented bath beads filling my nostrils. And, then the book. I read two whole chapters! And, once I even had to add more hot water to the tub Getting out was a breeze. I just stood up. I didn't wriggle. I didn't slip around and struggle. And now, I am sitting here in warm, comfy pjs, my hands all pruny, feeling pretty darn good! This is such a big deal to me. I am so happy :)
Tonights dinner was....
Sauteed chicken w/fresh parsley and herbed butter, served with twice baked mashed cauliflower :) It was so delicious!