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Floundering

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

I was going to say I've stumbled, but no, stumbling means you get right back up and continue moving...

I've been floundering, flopping around, wallowing in my bad eating habits. I have been feeding my aches and pains with toxic sugary treats, and not just single servings, entire bags of chip s and cookies...

The only reason I managed to lose a couple pounds is because I continue to exercise and move my body, even though it hurts, and I do eat nutritious high quality foods most of the time.

This cycle has repeated itself so many times, I'm just disgusted with myself! It's really easy to know in my head that I've got to control my poor snack habits, got to drop these extra ten pounds...but knowing and doing seem to have a disconnect! When I'm having lots of pain from my arthritis, fibromyalgia, I just automatically reach for foods with lots of carbs, and not the healthy ones! It's frightening...My doctor upped my medication, which made me really groggy and fuzzy for several weeks. I'm starting to have more pep, able to get moving a little sooner in the day...have a bit more motivation to change...

So, here I go, one day at a time! I tracked all my food yesterday. I went over about 150 calories, but was pleased that I controlled my portion size when I snacked. Baby steps.

Today, I want to eat well, make good food choices so I stay satisfied all day. I will walk my dog, I will do an exercise DVD. I will do some stretches if my pain gets bad...and breathe...and pray.

Thanks for reading!
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  • PIXIE-LICIOUS
    I'm rooting for you!
    2070 days ago
  • CHERYLA2012
    Here's to you recommitting to yourself and your journey and finding what works for you!
    2070 days ago
  • TRESSWANN
    Great baby steps. Keep on going
    2070 days ago
  • GABIBEAR
    I'm sorry to hear that you are in so much pain Sheri. Pain is a great motivator to go off course and throw caution to the wind. I picked myself up last week from a couple of months of "over" eating and I have dropped 5 of the 14 pounds I put back on. Like you said, one step at a time! The good thing is that you did not stop moving and exercising which I never stopped doing either! We can do it! I don't know about you, but when I am hurting, and I work out, I immediately feel better and stay better for a while after. I hope you do too!
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    Gabi
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    2070 days ago
  • LORILEEPAGE
    I also saw a comment somewhere that her being content with her overweight body would lead to feeling content with diabetes or other maladies associated with higher weight. Hmm...that is a good insight. I had decided that I'm ok with the heavier version of myself, and accepting of my weakness for sugar. Not good.
    2070 days ago
  • LORILEEPAGE
    I applaud your realization and decision to act on digging out of your difficult period. I am in your shoes. Lost a few after gaining, but having on average 4 good days a week in calorie range but only two out of seven I'm managing to not have sweets nor chips. Those great days make me feel wonderful, in mood and energy. (The sugar days plus the following 24 hours I'm most likely to feel depressed and angry or anxious, and feel aches and pains more) what do I think I'm doing!!? I have to take charge. I track on good days but let it slide when I feel like indulging all day. I'm letting my mood dictate my eating AND exercise. Whew. Admission and confession feels good. We are strong women, let's treat ourselves better. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2070 days ago
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