Day 2 (Plus 6 years or so)
Wednesday, February 12, 2014
It's really pretty embarrassing to me that I started on SparkPeople in 2008, and I still weigh about the same as I did back then. Well, technically not "still." It's really "again." I've lost the same 25 pounds and gained it back more times than I can count in my life, including on SP. Right now, I'm about 5 or 6 pounds below my absolute peak weight. It's not as if my ideal weight is really 25 pounds more than I'd like it to be, and that's why I keep bouncing back up. That's true for many people, I think, but in my case, I'm 90 pounds above the absolute most I can weigh and still have a healthy BMI. I know that the reason I keep gaining back the weight I lose is that I go off the diets. Diets don't work. You have to do a complete lifestyle change. This is what makes me nervous about SP, and I know it's the reason I've gained weight back on it. Tracking my food is the big key for me to losing, and I just can't stick to tracking for the rest of my life. When I stop, I gain the weight back. Now, I'm tracking again. Yesterday and today I've tracked everything I've eaten. (Stayed within my ranges yesterday, too, TYVM.) They say that the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results. Is it crazy for me to be doing this again when I know I can't keep it up for the rest of my life?