Hope to be back, but still depressed
Friday, January 10, 2014
Hi friends! Sorry to be gone so long. I'm going to be back, trying to any way! Monday should be a good place to re-start. I'm being bounced between depression, and panic attacks. I can be at the computer like this, and suddenly out of nowhere, I start to feel afraid, shakey, worried about present things that bother me, but in mega proportions.
I even feel that my emails are attacking me-I just can't seem to deal with them. Like an information overload., If I take meds (That I have for anxiety), I just end up getting sleepy, and taking a nap. I know I'm missing out on my days, but can't crawl out of the depression pit I'm in. Some of it I know is seasonal, other things, (Like my Daughter) are things I can't change, but I do lift her up to God. Only he can help her. She actually said, that if a dog and I were standing in the street, she'd just run herself in a tree., and not hit either of us. I'm so hurt by that. Wouldn't choose me over a dog, after raising her for all those years-Quite depressing.. And she always has her hand out for money, as she never has any, and she says she can't afford to pay us back. She has to buy dog food or something.
OK, enough venting. It doesn''t help anything Oh well, thanks for listening , Kathy
PS: Tough love would cut her out of our lives forever. She's that stubborn.