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Donuts; they were calling me

Thursday, October 24, 2013

Donuts, one of my trigger foods, something that is hard for me to ignore and only have one. Come to think of it, is there such a thing as "healthy serving" size for those fat fried sugar bombs? On the way into work today they were calling to me.

A convenience store that is actually on my way into work has a small bakery in the back and makes the best donuts in this area. They do not make a big variety but the ones they do make are outstanding. They rate way up high on my YUMO meter. Most of my drive to work in on I-40, about 25 miles, and one of the exits near where I work takes me right to this little spot of food bliss and caloric expansiion. Today the temptation was high to jump off and jump into the pool of fat and calories.

After giving the matter some thought once I made it to work, here is my opinion. My Wife and I had a bit of a disagreement this morning which ended in me getting the "if looks could kill" look as I headed to the shower. Wife and Son had wordlessly left for school while I was in the shower. It happens, and by this evening things will blow over after some discusssion. On my drive to work of course I replayed the entire conversation in my head, a couple of times. About that same time my mind drifts off to donuts, their topings and varieties and what I remember as how good they taste. It now appears obvious that I was returning to an old behaviour of dealing with conflict and stress with food to sooth me. As I neared the exit my mind was litteraly in a battle, "donuts", "no, stay healthy." "Ok, I can have just a couple, that is healthier than normal, right?" " No, you are close to a weight goal and weigh in is tomorrow." " But fewer donuts is a healthier approach, right?" "NO! because once you get two you will want to add on a big ciinnamon roll and a big Cherry Pepsi." "Well, but a bad meal won't cause you to gain in one day?" "Perhaps, but one bad meal tends to make me just say forget it for the day and pretty soon I've inhaled 4,000 calories and blown the weigh in, so NO not going to stop." "But they will be so good and creamy".......and suddenly something weird happened. It was time to take the exiit to the donut shop, and I just kept driving on, moving away fromt the temptation. "WAIT", my mind screamed, "you missed the turn, what are you DOING? You still have time to make a right turn and go back when you get off the highway." However, the further I drove away from the artery clogging exit, the quieter that voice became to the point where it was easy to exit where I was supposed to jump off, turn left and go to work.
One small good decision seems like such a small thing in retrospect, but you know what, this is MY victory, and I chose to live healthier in this one moment of my life. It is unrealistic for me to think that I'll never have another donut in my life. When I do have a donut it will be when I decide to simply enjoy one and not stress or emotional eating.
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    Steve, way to go on resisting the temptation. Coke and a bag of potato chips used to be my after work temptation. After a long day where my food was limited I too often used to stop for this type of junk. We all have our temptations and we have to put them behind us. You were saying that the further you drove the less the voice of temptations called you, you will also find the longer you go the less the voice calls. Last New Years I promised no more Coke and It has been a year since I have had a can or bottle of coke and I rarely even consider it anymore. The longer you go, the easy it will get.

    Way to go Steve!
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  • SOFT_VAL67
    That was a great decision friend. So often I find myself enjoying the treat, as if I am awaking from a nightmare, what??? what am I doing, what am I eating!!!! then its too late.
    Being aware and mindful is all a part of this process, this journey.
    We always have to keep the calories, fat grams, etc in our minds, we have to keep this in focus at all times, or face the ramifications of the slip up.
    You are succeeding, no matter what the scale says, if the scale is kind or unkind, you did yourself a great service by passing up that exit.
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  • NEWSUE45
    So proud of you Steve not only for not eating that donut but recognizing the fact that its ok to have a donut but not for the wrong reasons such as stress. You know drug addicts and alcoholics have sponsors to call on in moments of weakness but it is not as common for food addicts to have one BUT if you ever have a bad day, I am only a text or phone call away my friend so please remember that!

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    emoticon emoticon emoticon You did it!! that is so awesome!!! every victory, even if small at the time, is not really such a small thing after all. In reality, in our reality, it is a majorly huge victory......for every victory such as this....moves us closer to our ultimate goal... you are a winner for moving past the temptation........I know well the feeling of conflict and the endless internal debates which our minds wage against our will power.....so, bravo for you.... emoticon say emoticon to that internal dialogue which would try to bring us down.... emoticon
    2482 days ago
    Big Move - Way to Go!!!
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    The good thing is your decision could be a momentum builder...
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    OH MY Steve !! MY MOUTH IS WATAHING !!! For you see,, there's Tony Donut's, but it WAS WICKED FAH away in the city next to where I live now,, I had grown up near Tony's and I CERTAINLY WIPED OUT some things OFF the sheft in my time !!! So I have been FINE not lving hear it ,, howevah !! OF COURSe JUST to TEMPT ME NOOOO DOUBT they have built one DOWN THE STREET and I PASS IT OFTEN !! WORSE is that the building is BRIGHT YELLAH, you can NOT SEE IT !! OH MY GOODNESS !!

    BUT !! As you DID today, so FAH I've been able to do. I'll stop when I can just get ONE THING !! I LOVE their Bismarks !! And their other thing, LOL I can't begin to think of what its called,, YEAH it's been SO LONG !! its a long dounut, with a thick filling,,and choc icing on top,, well I DO NOT NEED THAT NOR the 3 donuts I'd get WITH THOSE !! AND Eat them in ALL in 2 days OR LESS ! So til I can just settle on ONE DONUT,, I am NOT stopping in therah !!

    CONGRATS on NOT DOING the emotional eating !!!! That's SUPAH !!!! And we will be SO PROUD OF YOU As you weigh in this week,,, as you know,, our team needs ALL the HELP we can get !!! I KNOW from steppin on the scale today,,, I've lost AT LEAST 1 lb,,, more like near 2. I am SO PROUD OF MYSELF !! A few challenges ago,,, I had the attitude of "Well if I lose ANYTHING During the challenge,, that's good enough" when it was NOT !! I SHOULD OF been going for the 5% which I FINALLY DID Last challenge,,,and HIT IT !! WOOHOOO losing just over 6% !! OH YEAH !! That FELT DAHWONDAHFUL !! I've watched Sandy (1bearwife) and also Ellen (Ejok170) REACH THEIR GOALS,, and I SHOULD of been with them INSTEAD OF NEEDING to lose another 50 to 80 lbs which I DO NOW !! SIGH !!
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    Wonderful, Steve, wonderful! You're the proof that NO food has power over our ability to choose health. I'm so proud of you.
    2483 days ago
    emoticon Ugh donuts are the worst for me. If they are there I have no hope, but sometimes it is just hard to keep away from them. So glad you didn't give in! Keep up the good work! I have a big problem with emotional eating, and I doubt I'd have dealt with the situation like you did. You're an inspiration. Good luck with the weigh in tomorrow!
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    I love it! Thought this blog was gonna end a different way. Yep, thought you would give in (just cuz I woulda') and then end by making a pledge to do better from now on.
    Goodness, your VICTORY felt good! - Felt good all the way over the mountains of WV and onto my laptop as I sat here in my favorite coffee shop considering the purchase of some sweet pastry which I surely did not need. And ya know what? -- The smell of sweet VICTORY seemed satisfying ENOUGH for me this day. Yes, your victory I now claim as my own. Shuttin' down and walking out of this den of spark sin and pastries galore. No pastry for me today. None!
    Sure, it doesn't mean forever, but today is all that matters today.
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  • GK1963
    Way to go!
    2483 days ago
    Awesome blog! Made me giggle, cause I have had similar conversation with my " overweight, out of control, emotionally hurting self". Woohoo! You won!
    I could not give up my evening snacking no matter how I tried!!!! I felt horrible every morning, but I would snack late the next nite..:(
    Finally by daughter challenged me to give up one thing for a month. She gave up sweets. Me I gave up eating after dinner. We put 20 dollars in a pot. And made a promise that who ever failed lost their 20. And the other one got it.....my sister and other daughter joined in as well giving up something ....and it WORKED! I haven't snacked for almost 4 weeks!! I had to do lots of self talk on those first evenings!
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    That is so great, way to go! I know how hard it it to say no to donuts. They are one of my trigger foods too (-along with brownies). You are most certainly my hero of the day! And good luck on your weighin tomorrow. May you be happy with your progress.
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    Love the NSVs!!! Way to go!
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    Way to go! I am a huge donut fan too and my daughter works at Dunkin' Donuts so I'm trying to resist the urge to request that she bring some home after her work shifts. I'm doing much better than when she first started, but still have some work to do. Keep up the great work!!
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    Awesome!! Great job on recognizing the trigger and then being able to talk yourself out of needing to comfort with food.
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    it's amazing how those battles keep coming up, and how insistent those devilish voices can be. They can rationalize ANYTHING.
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  • MSHEL7
    Wow, you did great. I still have those problems too. You have come a long way to drive right past that turn off even though you were still having that argument in your mind. Way to Go!! I am so proud of you. emoticon
    2483 days ago
    Hurray! What a victory for you!!!!! I completely understand the internal dialog AND the emotional eating pattern! All I can say is, keep up the great work, be strong, keep being objective about your emotions and eating! Good luck with the weigh in tomorrow!
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