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Let me be honest...

Monday, October 07, 2013

Since you are all my friends and I know you will love me no matter what, I will not insult you by telling you anything less than the truth.

I have not been doing too well. I have been on leave for about three weeks and it was a difficult time for me. First off, I didn't know how tired my body was until I took leave from work. I could not do anything meaningful with my time. I reduced my workouts to a bare minimum - all I could do was the Leslie Sansone walk at home programs. Even though I consistently did these seven days a week, the workouts were simply not challenging enough for my fitness level. I hiked twice in the three weeks and did a long morning run one day and had two days when I got a small burst of energy and did turbo jam, but that was about it. For some people, this sounds like plenty. But seeing as how my eating was also out of whack, I should have done better.

Secondly, my leave was also a time of serious anxiety. Before I left the office, I had requested for a transfer because the work I was doing was beginning to affect my health due to the stress levels involved. I didn't know how management was going to react to my request so I was very anxious. The anxiety came with the munchies. I am now up 5lbs, I expected worse.

A week into my leave, I was informed that a replacement had been found but I still had to stay in my current station to train my replacement. I didn't know whether I was happy or sad, change can be difficult.

Today I reported back to the office and was quickly informed that my replacement was rejected by one of my bosses, so back to more uncertainty.

During my leave, I did two training sessions for a consultancy firm as an associate trainer. It was great experience and I enjoyed the training, but these things happen in hotels, food choices are not too great, I was nervous because I was trying to learn and impress, being nervous made me eat things that were not too good, especially sweets...

So here I am, 5lbs heavier and feeling like I have wasted three weeks that I could have used better.

Today I pick myself up, dust myself off and commit to doing better to correct what I have messed up.

Today's workout:
30-day shred level one
turbo jam cardio party
One hour walk

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    I know how you feel. I too am an emotional eater, it's the worst. Really, it is. When the thought of how big you are is the thought that sends you running to the fridge, you know you have a problem. But you are obviously on the right track and 5lb is not the end of the world. So just look at every day as a new chance to make the right decisions. Good luck. emoticon
    2752 days ago
    Oh, I can so relate to this, having left a good position with a company I really loved because I realized the stress was hurting me. And just because you have time off, doesn't make the stress magically disappear immediately, it takes time to let it go.

    Please dont minimize the HUGE step you are taking for your health by changing jobs. That is awesome, and if the change caused you to slack off temporarily, that is OK. You can lose that 5 pounds again much more easily than you could recover from a stress-induced stroke or heart attack.

    I think it's AWESOME that you kept up even a moderate exercise program during your leave. Let go of "should have", it's in the past. Now that you have become aware that you need more exercise to feel your best, you can DO that going forward.

    2753 days ago
    Dear Friend, after the time you have had with your job, I am just happy that you are not suffering from adrenal burnout. Sometimes your body just needs to veg out after major stress. Sometimes you just need to let it, and then get back to your workouts when you get that 'raring to go' feeling again.
    Bless you, and I wish you the most beautiful life without all this crazy!
    Love Maria
    2754 days ago
  • 3016DEBRA
    Sorry you're kind of in a "funk", but you sound like you know how to attack it and your workout sounds FANTASTIC! I believe in you! emoticon
    2755 days ago
    So appreciate your honesty... it sounds like you needed some time for reflection... perhaps you didn't get where you wanted to be, but you're farther along than you were before you started!

    Hoping you continue with the dusting off... this is a regular event for me, as I tend to get dusty easily!

    2755 days ago
    I for one, know exactly what you are saying, having been through a major major stress attack in my life which led me to rushing back to old coping habits and gaining nearly 8 pounds. I also picked myself up, dusted myself off and made a fresh start today. I will hopefully get these extra pounds off in a couple of weeks and go down from there.
    2755 days ago
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    You can do it! Turn it around.....I think you are great that you did some exercise....Stress really hits me hard, too......I sure can relate to what you are saying..Hugs and love yourself by taking care of yourself! emoticon
    2755 days ago
  • MIRAGE727
    Stay strong, take a deep breath, and slide back into the groove! I waver on the scale every single day. I se where I am then focus on the task at hand. I know you will bounce back. Use those training sessions as stress theray, knowing they do you good!
    Stay strong, stay positive, and be well!
    2755 days ago
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    You're amazing! I would not have kept up my workouts. You're doing emoticon
    2755 days ago
    You haven't wasted that time, you have taken a bit of time to learn some things about yourself. Now use what you have learned and turn things around. You can do it.
    2755 days ago
    Awwwwww--poor you!!!!--crappy work eh?------But--you have a plan now-----It's a lot of exercise in 1 day tho----Lynda
    2755 days ago
  • TERRY0217
    Oh sweetie...stress will do that to us...it will make us tired, eat and just do thing we normally wouldn't do....I found, walking is a great workout when I'm stressed...I seem to walk faster and harder...
    We're behind you...hope you have a better week
    2755 days ago
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