DH has suggested that perhaps my expectations of "trainer behaviour" are based on the fact that my old trainer was a young guy, and my new trainer is a young girl.
DH and I had the same personal trainer (PT) formerly, but PT treated me with a deference that, apparently, he did not show to DH -- and that was fine. Guys leave other guys to their own devices. Perhaps it's the same with the new trainer. She and I are the same height, and I am strong, so she's leaving me to look after myself.
I have real physical difficulties that require a certain amount of help, even though (and this is sometimes the bane of my existence) the thing that causes my difficulties is not visible.
What really makes me sad is that my balance seems to be getting worse right now.* (At the end of the day I can't even rely on myself to be able to bend over and pick up laundry without falling forward. Aargh! So frustrating!)
Sometimes in Step class I can't even do the stretches that finish the class because they require me to change my stance away from having two feet solidly on the ground, while bending at the waist. And during class I can't do spins or backward steps or anything with a hop or bounce.
I muddle through. Instead of a regular step bench, I use the flat step that is only 2" off the ground.
So, whereas the regular step bench looks like this:
The one I use is only the top part of this bench placed flat on the ground:
Also, I face forward 90 percent of the time. (I don't "do" backwards on the bench. Period.)
I watch my feet a lot.
Still there are times when I will attempt to do something fancy in class -- maybe the instructor is demonstrating a complex pattern in half time so I figure I should give it a try -- and I will get dizzy or my left foot will lag, leaving me in danger of stumbling or even falling, and I will want to cry. Right there on the spot.
Luckily there is no time for tears in Step and you have to shake it off and keep moving.
I always keep moving. "Kick and clap, corner to corner" is the default move, or "basic right" (up-up, down-down), or "march it out". There are lots of ways to keep moving. (I even march while I'm drinking water, if I feel the need for hydration during class.)
Yeah, it's a small thing, but that's all I got right now.
* I just read something about "proprioception" (which incorporates the sense of balance) being affected temporarily by overdoses of vitamin B6. Hmm. Considering that I have been taking extra B vitamins for some time, perhaps this is complicating my existing balance issues. I need to do more reading on this.