First, a little summary for September 12, 2013.
Weight: Up again (142.8)
Sleep: a little over 7 hours
Mood: meh (no exercise yesterday)
On SparkPeople we often don't know each other's "weight history".
Some of us were always big, even in childhood. Some us got big through life events. Women in particular struggle, because pregnancy is automatically designed to make us bigger, and it can be hard to get over that while putting in 110% to look after babies, toddlers, and children.
I'm one of the ones who didn't start out big. Right now I am a size 6/8, between 140 and 145 pounds. I know that some of that weight is muscle, because I strength train. Some of the weight is extra bone density from carrying a heavier self around for the last 20 years. Some of the weight is extra skin that I will never get rid of without surgery (and surgery for that purpose is not something I am contemplating right now).
In my late teens and early 20s I hovered between 100 and 110 pounds. Sounds small, but as a petite, 5' 2" woman, that was perfectly healthy. I had never been fat. Never been pregnant. I was smaller up top and always thought of myself as having a "big bum" because I was long-waisted.
Here is a picture of me when I was 21:
Yes, as "thin" as I am now, I was thinner (and HEALTHY) then. I walked a lot because I didn't drive and I was too cheap to spend money on bus fare. My mom was an aerobics instructor and I used to go to her classes. (My mom still is an aerobics instructor, only she teaches at a Seniors Centre now, but that's not the point I am making at the moment.)
My parents recently found the watch I am wearing in the photo and returned it to me. You really would not believe how small it is.
It is 1.5 inches in diameter!
I. WAS. THIN.
But normal, healthy.
Currently at 141 by normal BMI standards I am 10 pounds overweight for a 5' 2" woman. Highest healthy BMI for a 5' 2" woman is around 131 pounds (!). At the start of my journey, I originally wanted to get down to 125 pounds. Along the way, I figured out that I could never get that low, especially with the amount of muscle I am carrying. (I hadn't even considered the extra bone density and skin, but I had considered that I am now a 36D where before I was a 34B, so there's extra weight I'm carrying there, too.)
Anyway, I eventually went with 135 as my goal weight, even though that's "overweight" by normal BMI standards.
Using a BMI for athletic builds (I don't think of myself as athletic, but my muscle mass would probably count as an athletic build) I am already at a healthy BMI. That is the only reason I am able to be satisfied with what I have accomplished.
Here is a link to a BMI calculator for "lean" or "athletic" builds. (Unfortunately, it does not differentiate between male and female, which I think is a slight drawback.)