Fluke or Trend?
Wednesday, September 11, 2013
Ever since I kind of just *stopped* losing weight in May, after a year of steady weight loss, I've still been following the Spark plan.
That is, I weigh myself daily, I track my food and exercise daily, I make a conscious effort to eat those things that I deem are within the bounds of my lifestyle, and to avoid those things that are not. (Thus, no "good" or "bad" foods in and of themselves. I just make choices. And I record my choices faithfully, to the best of my ability.)
I don't find this onerous.
I find it absolutely necessary.
So anyway, what I am doing is maintaining, and I have been for about three months or so. (Seems like such a short time -- but it's a whole summer, so it's not insignificant.)
But I'm not calling it Maintenance. I'm not calling it anything. I'm just doing it.
For much of the summer, I was in the 143-144 range. If I ever see 145 on the scale again, I don't know what I will do, but so far it hasn't happened and I am grateful to myself and my hard work for that. (I don't think I take time to acknowledge this enough. I accomplished this weight loss for myself. Yes, I had support, but no one did it for me. No one slapped food out of my mouth. No one chained me to the treadmill. I DID this!)
Now I finally find myself at a weight I can comfortably call 141.
For a couple of days in a row.
And I start to wonder, because I am me, what did I do differently? Can I repeat this? Can I continue this? Is it a trend? Can I actually lose that last few pounds after all?
Or, is it just a fluke?
So, if I AM doing things differently, what am I doing that's different?
More salads. Less Starbucks.
Could it really be that simple?
I doubt it. But nevertheless. I hope it's a slow downward trend after all and not just a fluke.
I just noticed it is September 11, something I was not keeping track of. I will simply acknowledge it here privately as the third anniversary of losing my beloved mother-in-law, and commemorate it here publicly as a day of horror in 2001 that changed the world forever.