Three fraking pounds?!
Tuesday, September 10, 2013
I know it shouldn't make a difference. I should be pleased with my success. But THREE FRAKING POUNDS?! I'm still not breaking past that 200 barrier. It's been over a month now. I'm extremely disappointed in myself. I was losing at least five pounds a week for the longest time. Since my surgeries, I've only lost about ten. Sheesh.
I should be proud of myself for the weight loss, but I KNOW I can do better because I did it before! I can't blame it on no exercise, because honestly, I wasn't exercising before! I've simply been eating too much. Sunday, I was out with friends at a Greek restaurant. We went there specifically because they have this amazing lemon, chicken rice soup that they only make on Sundays. At the beginning of my dieting adventure, I would have had one cup of soup and be done. But this time I had fried zucchini with tzatziki sauce, a gigantic bowl of soup, iced tea with sugar, and stole a bunch of my husband's fries. Easily 1000 calories in one sitting.
When I was a teenager, I had an art class in high school. Every single project and assignment I had, I got an "A". It was pretty easy. No biggie. When report cards came out, my teacher had given me a "B". I was hurt and confused. I really liked this teacher and this class. When I got the courage to ask her why I'd only gotten a "B". All my grades had been "A"s! She sat me down and said that she knew that I was capable of doing better. So for what I was capable of, I'd only earned a "B".
The past few weeks, I've only been doing "C" work at best with my nutrition and exercise. That's passing, yes. But I'm capable of getting that "A". I might have to do some extra credit and keep better track here on every single morsel I put in my mouth to keep myself honest, but I will do it.
Hopefully in one week I'll be back here to post that I've broken that 200 mark and am finally on my way to really reaching my goals.
Please, any advice you have would be great. Amanda, that suggestion you had of changing the way I approach "rewarding" myself and stuff has been great! I've used it most days and it's kept me from throwing in the towel. Thanks guys for everything!