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Three fraking pounds?!

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

I know it shouldn't make a difference. I should be pleased with my success. But THREE FRAKING POUNDS?! I'm still not breaking past that 200 barrier. It's been over a month now. I'm extremely disappointed in myself. I was losing at least five pounds a week for the longest time. Since my surgeries, I've only lost about ten. Sheesh.

I should be proud of myself for the weight loss, but I KNOW I can do better because I did it before! I can't blame it on no exercise, because honestly, I wasn't exercising before! I've simply been eating too much. Sunday, I was out with friends at a Greek restaurant. We went there specifically because they have this amazing lemon, chicken rice soup that they only make on Sundays. At the beginning of my dieting adventure, I would have had one cup of soup and be done. But this time I had fried zucchini with tzatziki sauce, a gigantic bowl of soup, iced tea with sugar, and stole a bunch of my husband's fries. Easily 1000 calories in one sitting.

When I was a teenager, I had an art class in high school. Every single project and assignment I had, I got an "A". It was pretty easy. No biggie. When report cards came out, my teacher had given me a "B". I was hurt and confused. I really liked this teacher and this class. When I got the courage to ask her why I'd only gotten a "B". All my grades had been "A"s! She sat me down and said that she knew that I was capable of doing better. So for what I was capable of, I'd only earned a "B".

The past few weeks, I've only been doing "C" work at best with my nutrition and exercise. That's passing, yes. But I'm capable of getting that "A". I might have to do some extra credit and keep better track here on every single morsel I put in my mouth to keep myself honest, but I will do it.

Hopefully in one week I'll be back here to post that I've broken that 200 mark and am finally on my way to really reaching my goals.

Please, any advice you have would be great. Amanda, that suggestion you had of changing the way I approach "rewarding" myself and stuff has been great! I've used it most days and it's kept me from throwing in the towel. Thanks guys for everything!
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  • DENI47
    SInce you realized you are not bringing your A game, I would bet that you start making better progress. Still, 3 pounds gone is not bad. Keep it up!
    2726 days ago
  • AMANDANCES
    Yay!!! I'm glad it helped!! I know you don't want to hear this, but have patience and don't beat yourself up. You learned a lesson about how you eat, and that's really important for long-term success. I blew off the last couple of weeks too, and haven't seen the scale budge for a month, but it WILL. Five pounds a week is a LOT! Maybe your body is through that stage and has settled down into "Okay, I get it -- she's not feeding me. I guess I'm going to have to be more efficient." lol. Hey -- you're getting healthier EVERY DAY! The weight loss will come. It really will! But yeah, the tracking thing is REALLY important. I know when I don't track, I don't lose. Maybe a year from now we can get off the daily tracking, but right now it's what we both need to succeed.
    2729 days ago
  • TRYINGTOLOSE64
    Quite beating yourself up!! You could be doing like me and gaining instead of losing!
    2729 days ago
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